SelfDefenseFamily
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Okay, were to start. Last summer I've met a girl from Canada who was travelling trough Europe. I ended up falling head over heels for her. She had something really special and I like to consider that was, even tho temporary maybe one of the best relationships I've had. Knowing that she had to leave and I wouldn't be seeing her again anytime soon really tore my heart in two. It's been 4 months since she left and I really don't know where I stand. Contact between us has pretty much withered away. I know she has her own responsibilities but that still hurts that it turned out like this. I think because of that I pretty much assume that this thing is not gonna work out. She hasn't talked to me addressing the matter so I really don't know how things are. I dread the day when I find out that she has met somebody new. Which is really selfish. It's maybe because of that fear that I want to leave it in the past. But I just feel like crap doing so. I'm alone at home all the time, I'm incapable of meeting new people and I'm just such a selfish little honeysuckle who needs to feel loved all the time. Why can't I just dissolve into nothing. I don't know what to do and it drives me up the walls.