I don't understand myself anymore. I've tried to write out all I'm feeling three or four times now, but I can't form it in a coherent way. It's just... god I wish I could talk to her 24/7. She keeps saying that I'll get bored of her or be put off by her at some point, but, I don't see it. I wish she wasn't that insecure. She's funny, she's beautiful, she's fairly smart, I just wish she saw that. But... still, why her? I've got my work cut out for me with her, even in the almost impossible scenario where she feels the same, she might never know how to express it. She's not perfect. She's not some perfect match for the dream girl I build in my head year after year like my ex was. It's not a case of "wow, we agree on everything" or "wow, we have everything in common" or even "wow, I feel like I've known you for years". We're so close, we've gone out of our way to tell each other so much, but, I still feel I don't know half the things about her. And yet... somehow... I like that? Like... our connection goes deeper than all that. Maybe I've been going about it wrong all these years. Looking for the wrong feels. Because, I don't think I've ever felt this way about someone before, even though it goes against every bit of logic in my head. I think I love her.