Recent content by Lone Apothecary

Ah, jeez, talk about catastrophizing and having egg on your face. For someone who strives to be rational, I get incredibly irrational when it comes to my anxious thoughts. My shift today wasn't that bad, and my schedule for next week is pretty manageable, so I think I'll reconsider leaving for...

It's been a while since I started a new thread on here. My last thread on here ended on a positive note, and I'd like to say I've continued to improve since then, but I digress. I'd like to briefly summarize the events of my past few years. Feel free to skip to this paragraph; this isn't...

Ah, if it's a personal preference, then hey, you like what you like. I wasn't sure if you were backing yourself into a corner thinking you were too old or not. When you say things that indicate that you feel like you haven't gotten the things or success that others your age have gotten, it makes...

The description of your assumption in the original post was oversimplified, but--after reading this--I agree with you. Recovering from something that damages you deeply is incredibly difficult. I still struggle on a regular basis with PTSD from something that happened years ago. Our thoughts...

The night when one of my mother's ex-boyfriends (the father of my younger half-sibling) abused her when I was younger still haunts me to this day. Yelling or any sort of domestic tension makes me feel like the frightened child I was that night, all over again. I've lost sleep over it. I've spent...

Why, thank you. :)

Hello to you, too, katkit, and welcome to the forum. As for your question, my best bet would either be schadenfreude (joy from the misfortune of others), or he's laughing at others to make himself feel better about his own insecurities.

I woke up this morning, checked my gmail, and noticed a notification from my favorite writing site stating that I'd gotten a new badge. It was for getting 75 hearts on my work in total. Now, the badges are superficial, and I don't care about 75 hearts simply because it's a big number, but I'm...

I'm no psychologist, but I always fall back on "nature and nurture" to explain these sorts of things. That said, depression, anxiety, and chemical imbalances may all be playing a part, and they may all be influencing each other as well. When dealing with co-morbidity, things tend to work in...

I'd say that location can definitely have an impact on feelings of loneliness. I live in a little rural, coastal community in Newfoundland about 15 minutes away from the nearest town by car (I once walked to town, and it took me over 2 hours). There aren't many people in this community that I...

Drug habits (excepting caffeine), rapidly deteriorating health, excessive illogic or irrationality, excessive superstition, religious beliefs [Unless someone can justify their beliefs--at which point I'd simply convert--I wouldn't be able to respect them enough to form a deep, intimate...

I'm hoping to find a job opening that suits me.

After what my psychologist told me yesterday, I stopped worrying so much about "what if" scenarios & spent the morning calling up local businesses seeing if they were hiring or taking on volunteers. I haven't found any job openings yet, but I'm looking into volunteering with the arts council or...

I'd say I'm a loner, yes. For the longest time, I felt horrible for not having friends and doing activities with those friends like others seemed to do so often. I realized, though, that I didn't really have a personal desire for those things so much as I was preoccupied with how people would...

"how long you live in loneliness?" Since December 2011, although now I'm starting to feel like less I'm living in loneliness & more like I'm living in comfortable seclusion. "How many friends do you have?" Three. Two are long-time online friends, one is someone I tentatively call a friend who I...