QuietGuy
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I experience extremely rapid and dramatic mood swings, and I was just wondering whether anyone else here experiences the same thing?
It really is quite extraordinary. In the space of half an hour (or even less), I can go from extremely depressed to extremely happy, and vice versa. I feel like I'm on a colossal emotional rollercoaster.
If the mood swing is positive, it's usually because I've been forcing myself to think positively and optimistically about life. I convince myself that life is actually good overall, and that there are a lot of things to be happy about. When this works, I can reach a state of near euphoria, and walk around grinning like a maniacal cheshire cat.
If the mood swing is negative, it's usually because some random event has suddenly and painfully reminded me just how lonely I really am, and how deeply I want to be in a relationship with a special girl. This swing can happen extremely rapidly, and its effects can last for hours or even days.
Today, I unfortunately had a really massive negative swing. I was bouncing around quite cheerfully and happily, when I happened to briefly meet the prettiest and sweetest girl that has ever lived in the entire history of the human race. No exaggeration. How such a girl could possibly exist, I have no idea - she must have been touched by God himself. I literally melted instantaneously into a mushy gibbering puddle in front of her. With no warning at all, I was suddenly in the presence of an angel from heaven, and then just as quickly, she was gone.
(Life seems to have a habit of doing this to me - bringing me into contact with wonderful girls, and then making them inaccessible to me, either because they're already in a relationship, or they're completely uninterested in me, or they suddenly disappear completely from my life with no way for me to find them again, etc. I digress.)
Anyway, for some reason, that experience quickly brought sharp stabbing pains of loneliness, and within about 10 minutes, I had emotionally fallen from a mountain peak into a black chasm.
So I was just wondering if anyone else experiences such massive mood swings? Or are you permanently lonely / depressed? Or even... permanently happy?!
It really is quite extraordinary. In the space of half an hour (or even less), I can go from extremely depressed to extremely happy, and vice versa. I feel like I'm on a colossal emotional rollercoaster.
If the mood swing is positive, it's usually because I've been forcing myself to think positively and optimistically about life. I convince myself that life is actually good overall, and that there are a lot of things to be happy about. When this works, I can reach a state of near euphoria, and walk around grinning like a maniacal cheshire cat.
If the mood swing is negative, it's usually because some random event has suddenly and painfully reminded me just how lonely I really am, and how deeply I want to be in a relationship with a special girl. This swing can happen extremely rapidly, and its effects can last for hours or even days.
Today, I unfortunately had a really massive negative swing. I was bouncing around quite cheerfully and happily, when I happened to briefly meet the prettiest and sweetest girl that has ever lived in the entire history of the human race. No exaggeration. How such a girl could possibly exist, I have no idea - she must have been touched by God himself. I literally melted instantaneously into a mushy gibbering puddle in front of her. With no warning at all, I was suddenly in the presence of an angel from heaven, and then just as quickly, she was gone.
(Life seems to have a habit of doing this to me - bringing me into contact with wonderful girls, and then making them inaccessible to me, either because they're already in a relationship, or they're completely uninterested in me, or they suddenly disappear completely from my life with no way for me to find them again, etc. I digress.)
Anyway, for some reason, that experience quickly brought sharp stabbing pains of loneliness, and within about 10 minutes, I had emotionally fallen from a mountain peak into a black chasm.
So I was just wondering if anyone else experiences such massive mood swings? Or are you permanently lonely / depressed? Or even... permanently happy?!