Futureless
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Tired of the bullshit, and the sheer impossibility of it all for me. I'm a hardcore incel. I'm 23 and see a vast, wasteland of a future for me, hence the name. And my heart's so tired of it all. I can't change myself. I'm not good for this world, and it's not good for me. It's been too long since I've been happy, and too long since I felt like I belonged on planet earth.
So many people won't let up with the bullshit. "Change yourself." "You have to love yourself first." "There's someone for everyone." And the bullshit never ends. They say things that I know in my heart and by experience are not true. I've never had a girlfriend before. No sex, no love from a girl. I'm ugly, hideous. And lack of affection has turned my wretchedness inwards as well. I can never be good enough, and for being physically unattractive, I have no hope for a romantic life. I am a misanthrope now. I wish humankind to be destroyed, and wish that I could be the one to do it.
I think of how a complete ******* failure I am. I will never have a girlfriend, a wife, a family, stability, hope, a life worth living. I think maybe the only way I could go on living and make some use of life is if I could merely accept it. But I can't stop thinking about what I lack. It's torturous to think of what can never be. But I also lack the courage to just pull the trigger thus far, although maybe that can change eventually. It's like being stuck in limbo or something. So I'm here at a place like this. Maybe some place to vent, or communicate, or whatever.
I'm no one going no where and becoming nothing.
So many people won't let up with the bullshit. "Change yourself." "You have to love yourself first." "There's someone for everyone." And the bullshit never ends. They say things that I know in my heart and by experience are not true. I've never had a girlfriend before. No sex, no love from a girl. I'm ugly, hideous. And lack of affection has turned my wretchedness inwards as well. I can never be good enough, and for being physically unattractive, I have no hope for a romantic life. I am a misanthrope now. I wish humankind to be destroyed, and wish that I could be the one to do it.
I think of how a complete ******* failure I am. I will never have a girlfriend, a wife, a family, stability, hope, a life worth living. I think maybe the only way I could go on living and make some use of life is if I could merely accept it. But I can't stop thinking about what I lack. It's torturous to think of what can never be. But I also lack the courage to just pull the trigger thus far, although maybe that can change eventually. It's like being stuck in limbo or something. So I'm here at a place like this. Maybe some place to vent, or communicate, or whatever.
I'm no one going no where and becoming nothing.