Bare with me here as this is something I haven't actually shared with anyone and is deeply embarrassing for me but I need it off my chest I guess so here goes.
Almost 4 years ago I was led on by a girl that I worked with. When I first saw her I thought wow, but I kept my distance as she had a boyfriend and not to mention the attention of every guy in the workplace. However one day I felt bad for her being stuck on the tills all the time as me and everyone else had a laugh out the back in the warehouse, so I decided to go talk to her. To my suprise the conversation went well and over time her hours increased and we spent most days chatting for hours on end about anything and everything.
One day she offered me a lift to work and took my number incase she was running late or something, this then started months of texting each other everyday almost all day. She often told me that her boyfriend didn't treat her so well. Over time the messages got more and more flirty. Her boyfriend found out and wasn't happy, I offered to minimise contact but we ended up conversing on the dreaded Snapchat. We became each others top friend on SC. She oftenly messaged me when out drinking with her girl pals. Thesee got steamy sometimes, and my attraction to her kept soaring. I also felt she felt the same way about me. She even said there was just something about me.
Our colleagues would always ask what was going on between us and when we were going to get together which we both laughed off. However eventually they all started to tell me that she was really into me and I should make a move. Some even suggesting she would palm off her boyfriend for me. I took this with a pinch of salt and never acted apon their advice.
Until one day I did exactly that and asked whether anything was going to happen. She said it couldn't and i ended up being quite hurt by this revelation as I had fallen for her very hard.
We still chatted daily at work and on Snapchat but things were different. Not long after I had to take a few months off work and during our contact fizzled out, although not through lack of me trying. I asked her why she seemed so distant and never got a straight answer.
However on my return to work it soon became clear she had moved on to the next guy and was having the same sorta thing go on with him. This hurt me massively and hit my confidence hard. It was a pain to watch them flirt during shifts and when one wasn't there I could see they were snapchatting each other, with him replacing me as her top friend on there. This became unbareable and I felt worthless. I removed them both from Facebook as seeing the constant flirty posts and pictures of them both looking close really bothered me.
I got servely depressed and didn't want to be in the same workplace as them two. However I never opened up to anyone and my bosses took it as me not wanting to be there and started to make my life more difficult. Not long after this I quit my job of 7 years and severed contact with everyone there as noone could see where i was coming from.I felt I had embarrassed myself massively.
It's been 3 years since that now but I still dream of the girl almost nightly. My confidence is at a alltime low and ive not talked to another girl since. Afraid that this scenario may happen again.
Sorry for the wall of text . Thank you to anyway who reads any or all of this
Almost 4 years ago I was led on by a girl that I worked with. When I first saw her I thought wow, but I kept my distance as she had a boyfriend and not to mention the attention of every guy in the workplace. However one day I felt bad for her being stuck on the tills all the time as me and everyone else had a laugh out the back in the warehouse, so I decided to go talk to her. To my suprise the conversation went well and over time her hours increased and we spent most days chatting for hours on end about anything and everything.
One day she offered me a lift to work and took my number incase she was running late or something, this then started months of texting each other everyday almost all day. She often told me that her boyfriend didn't treat her so well. Over time the messages got more and more flirty. Her boyfriend found out and wasn't happy, I offered to minimise contact but we ended up conversing on the dreaded Snapchat. We became each others top friend on SC. She oftenly messaged me when out drinking with her girl pals. Thesee got steamy sometimes, and my attraction to her kept soaring. I also felt she felt the same way about me. She even said there was just something about me.
Our colleagues would always ask what was going on between us and when we were going to get together which we both laughed off. However eventually they all started to tell me that she was really into me and I should make a move. Some even suggesting she would palm off her boyfriend for me. I took this with a pinch of salt and never acted apon their advice.
Until one day I did exactly that and asked whether anything was going to happen. She said it couldn't and i ended up being quite hurt by this revelation as I had fallen for her very hard.
We still chatted daily at work and on Snapchat but things were different. Not long after I had to take a few months off work and during our contact fizzled out, although not through lack of me trying. I asked her why she seemed so distant and never got a straight answer.
However on my return to work it soon became clear she had moved on to the next guy and was having the same sorta thing go on with him. This hurt me massively and hit my confidence hard. It was a pain to watch them flirt during shifts and when one wasn't there I could see they were snapchatting each other, with him replacing me as her top friend on there. This became unbareable and I felt worthless. I removed them both from Facebook as seeing the constant flirty posts and pictures of them both looking close really bothered me.
I got servely depressed and didn't want to be in the same workplace as them two. However I never opened up to anyone and my bosses took it as me not wanting to be there and started to make my life more difficult. Not long after this I quit my job of 7 years and severed contact with everyone there as noone could see where i was coming from.I felt I had embarrassed myself massively.
It's been 3 years since that now but I still dream of the girl almost nightly. My confidence is at a alltime low and ive not talked to another girl since. Afraid that this scenario may happen again.
Sorry for the wall of text . Thank you to anyway who reads any or all of this