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Going to be gone for a while...
#21
LOL Thanks for the compliment. I wish I could say I consider MYSELF as smart lol. Not really these days. Not to mention people telling me what I'm supposed to feel or not, which irks me. Which is also why I posted here, even though I felt like deleting this thread a couple of hundred times at this point, but it feels good to have people read, sympathise, offer things,without telling me "You're stupid if you don't do X" which flies me off the handle. I'm dealing as best I can and it has to be my way, or else I'll regret it the rest of my life. Same goes with my daughters.

I'll be keeping an eye on him in jail. Eventually me and him are going to have a little sit down. Count on it. I revel in how that day's going to go. ;-)
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#22
(08-01-2017, 12:11 AM)Richard_39 Wrote: Only good part is neither of them have memories of being raped. You would think none of it happened, yet her stomach is plenty evidence it did.

I started thinking about it and I don't fully get it. Obviously you know your daughters well, but could there be a possibility that they are too scared to tell it happened?

Because I don't get, how can you rape so that your 'victim' doesn't feel or know anything. She must be so deep asleep that she doesn't understand what's going on? Is that possible?
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#23
(08-02-2017, 03:46 AM)SilentLife Wrote:
(08-01-2017, 12:11 AM)Richard_39 Wrote: Only good part is neither of them have memories of being raped. You would think none of it happened, yet her stomach is plenty evidence it did.

I started thinking about it and I don't fully get it. Obviously you know your daughters well, but could there be a possibility that they are too scared to tell it happened?

Because I don't get, how can you rape so that your 'victim' doesn't feel or know anything. She must be so deep asleep that she doesn't understand what's going on? Is that possible?
No, we didn't. Both of them were very avid on details of what they DID remember (fair chance it happened more than once, as well...) and were fighting with themselves to try and remember specifics, which they don't. Which leads me to believe either an illicit substance was at play, or that they've blocked it from their subconscious minds.
Honestly, I hope it stays that way. Ain't no memory a kid should ever have.
I don't think deep sleep cuts it either. I won't go into specifics of what they've told, but they mention feeling like they were in a dreamy state. This leads me to believe in a drug.
Either way, the end result on my oldest is undisputable. He's been arrested now and he talked, the cops are only waiting for the possibility of trial or not to give us the details. We'll know then.

And if they don't know...well, it might take one year, 10 or more, but I'll wait until everyone forgets this story, get a sit down with the dude and I'll make him sing like a canary. One way or another.
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#24
(08-02-2017, 04:12 AM)Richard_39 Wrote: No, we didn't. Both of them were very avid on details of what they DID remember (fair chance it happened more than once, as well...) and were fighting with themselves to try and remember specifics, which they don't. Which leads me to believe either an illicit substance was at play, or that they've blocked it from their subconscious minds.
Honestly, I hope it stays that way. Ain't no memory a kid should ever have.
I don't think deep sleep cuts it either. I won't go into specifics of what they've told, but they mention feeling like they were in a dreamy state. This leads me to believe in a drug.

OK, fair enough.

Either way an ugly story.
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#25
It might be happening today.
I'm at work, waiting on a phonecall. My ex is at the hospital with my daughter. She was scheduled in about 15 days, but she lost some liquid.

God, I so do NOT want this to happen to her at that age................................fucking divine bastard. If I get my hands on you you'll be squirting divine blood all over the universe.
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#26
False alarm for the moment.
I'll try and keep updates going as long as my heart doesn't give away beforehand.
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#27
Hi Richard, I've read and smiled at quite a few of your posts on here since I've been back recently but this is the first time I've seen your full story.  Thank you for sharing it, and wow you must be all over the place right now.  

I can sense you want your daughter to have a fair chance to be happier than a lot of us here, to fight for and believe in herself and the person she wants to be and things she wants to do and experience.   Since I'm in my silver lining mode I just feel compelled to write to you that I can remember being 12, right before everything hit the fan, and I want to give my two cents that I think right now, your fatherly support and non judgement and love, is the most important thing you have to do on this planet right.  Your little girl got catapulted into the cruel world of crappy adults that you've proven in your writing that you know well, through no fault of her own, and the gift of a loving father is the most powerful remedy for something so frightening, and can steel her against becoming one of those crappy adults.  A father is a home.  A father is forgiveness.  A father is safety.   My unsolicited advice is that I hope you can tell her all the things in your heart, know her, apologize to her for not being there when this happened to her, for not finding it sooner.   Let her blame you and her mother later if she gets to that phase (don't we all), tell her over and over that whatever happened it was not her fault.  Get that fcker prosecuted.  Get her into counseling, do not allow her mother to spend money, especially daughter's $ (if I read that before) on anything but help for getting daughter back to a healthy place and outlook after all of this.    I can tell that you will love her no matter what, and you are giving her more than a lot of young women and children matured too fast never got.  Give her everything you have until she's better.  If she is putting the baby up for adoption, grieve with her, but guide her to really know and believe she made the right choice, for herself, but for the baby too.  Buy her ice-cream, shoes, take her skating, give her a childhood.   I assume you didn't want your purpose in life to be children, but your role is so important right now that I hope you find some of that purpose in your little girl.  She needs her daddy, and is going to need you for years to come.  Something like this is not a death sentence, but like someone said before it can skew you.  She still has her innocence, so please honor that in her, and also her unfurling wisdom.  Sometimes with a parent who really gets you, and really tries to help, you can save yourself from becoming the allotted cliche, even if you try it out for a while. I'm just speaking from my own experience, I know you didn't ask, and I'm guessing you already know these things.  I just know where she's at, and the fact that's she's going through this doesn't make her a grown up, however she becomes or acts in the next several years.  Don't lose her.  Don't let her lose herself. Don't ever give up on her.  Nothing that has happened to her makes any kind of sense, and that is the saddest part to me, she deserves none of these adult hardships and brought none of these potential emotional and psychological problems on herself.  Remind her that everyday.  This was not her fault.  But managing her pain is all of your responsibility.  My guess is she needs resources like the ones you've demonstrated in your posts- self awareness, acceptance, the ability to grow and change spirit and mindset.  She is lucky to have you.  Please hang in there and be her rock.  Glad you've found one here too.  Breathe and eat and be, and we're here! (and sorry if you're not in the mood for all my unsolicited chiming in, but I'm just so glad she has you and had to share my thoughts).  Sending vibes of ok-ness to you and your daughter.
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#28
Little update, my daughter had a gynecology exam this morning. Apparently, as soon as the doctor put a finger inside, she started freaking out with the pain of it. So they decided she will give birth by Césarienne (I believe its called C-Section in english) on the 5th of September. So it's set for that date....
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#29
Aww, hope it goes smoothly for your daughter, Richard. Sending well wishes your way.
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#30
Another little update, this one very grim.
The mother and the sister of that piece of shit human being called my ex, acting like hypocrites and like they didn't know what had happened, which could have been plausible, considering they hadn't been talking to their son or brother previously.
Well, my ex found out they were hypocrites, not only did they know, but apparently, they want to take lawyers to prevent the adoption and have rights to the child of my daughter, or even force her into not having the adoption by having the other prick not sign the paper, which apparently is a right he has.

I'm getting REAL tired of the law right now and I'm about to fuck it. There is no way, and I mean no GODDAMN WAY in hell I am going to let what will become my grandaughter have any contact WHATSOEVER with those fucking family of psychopaths. I already have trouble at work, dunno if I'll still have this job in a month, I have no means to pay for a lawyer but I'll find a way anyway. And if the lawyer route doesn't work, well...fuck 'em. FUCK 'EM ALL. A jail cell sounds like a great place right now. If there is a God, I hope he's fucking happy because I'm really thinking about throwing my fucking life away. Thank you for this beautiful existence, cocksucker, when I croak, you better hope to hell you're non-existent, because I'll execute you.
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