constant stranger said:
I have one friend in real life and one online friendship with a lady whom I haven't seen for about 50 years but who was my dearest childhood relationship: 9 years we knew one another, from primary 1 to secondary school 3rd form.....we were a couple of Yanks in a British school.
What do I do? I wait on and wipe up after my 93 yr old mood disordered mother; I maintain a 12 acre rural property; I live for 4 hours every Saturday selling bread, wooden toys, honey and handmade soap at the farmers market.....it closes in October and then I'm so depressed; I volunteer with the Master Gardeners where I met my one friend: and I teach beginning beekeeping one night a month at the local community college.
That really doesn't seem so awful......too bad I hate my life.
Me too constant stranger.
Have you tried establishing your own business. May be save some money aside and invest it in some business plan.
Or program apps at the weekends, something that could result in profit that would allow you to buy a new house.