Not sure what I am going through, I have started crying everyday for almost a month now. I am not depressed because I don't have issues concentrating or doing my tasks. I go to job interviews and spend a lot of time preparing and even learning skills. After more than year trying since I do want to change my jobs, recruiters finally started calling me. I am 34, single woman, live alone. I am comfortable and actually often seek time away from people. I dont like going to bars or late at night, I have circles for hitch hiking. My colleagues don't like me and try to cause me problems, but thats not new and I have learned to manage. I started learning japanese on weekends, I have been intending to for years, finally started. It was going well, it flows easy for me to my surprise and I enjoy practicing the kanji or hiragana/katakana writing. I was born in Japan and lived there with my family until I was five, I love their food and appreciation of beauty and art. On one occasion, one of the course participants made a casual non intentional remark that it seems after all that I do go out with friends. She did not mean to be sarcastic and maybe doesnt have a clue how that affected me. Or maybe it was just around that time that I started crying every day. I even skipped class the next week. Maybe I am also tired of working hard for years without time to do the things that I want, but things like japanese course, yoga class, or dancing lessons are the things that I want. Something is happening to me and I still cant get to the bottom of this crying. All I know is that I feel very sensitive, vulnerable, and dont want to be working at this job anymore.