hellostarlight
Active member
So I've gotten to a point now where the lines between me wanting to get better, accepting the likelihood of me doing so is getting lower with time and not even wanting to try anymore because life has been me trying and failing since as far back as I can remember and I'm honestly just tired.
I have never really been able to function normally, basic life has always been difficult, the only way I made it through school was through a mix of self-harm and suicide attempts and the idea of living the rest of my life like that is... :')
Everyone is telling me to stay positive, I just need a push in the right direction, I need to keep going... and I just wanna be like no, I don't want to anymore. I've been trying so hard for so long and I never get anything out of it lol
I'm sick of being pushed, it isn't getting easier, when I did start to feel like things were getting better I self-harmed my way through it, surprise surprise, I just didn't tell anyone that was the only reason why. I can't function and I never have been able to.
I'm just tired. I don't really know why I wanted to post this, I'll probably read if there are any replies but I usually write a response to the comments and delete it before I post bc I feel too worthless tbh and I'll just say something really stupid that adds nothing to the conversation probably so all I'm gonna say is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-
ty for reading this is a mess I'll regret it later-
I have never really been able to function normally, basic life has always been difficult, the only way I made it through school was through a mix of self-harm and suicide attempts and the idea of living the rest of my life like that is... :')
Everyone is telling me to stay positive, I just need a push in the right direction, I need to keep going... and I just wanna be like no, I don't want to anymore. I've been trying so hard for so long and I never get anything out of it lol
I'm sick of being pushed, it isn't getting easier, when I did start to feel like things were getting better I self-harmed my way through it, surprise surprise, I just didn't tell anyone that was the only reason why. I can't function and I never have been able to.
I'm just tired. I don't really know why I wanted to post this, I'll probably read if there are any replies but I usually write a response to the comments and delete it before I post bc I feel too worthless tbh and I'll just say something really stupid that adds nothing to the conversation probably so all I'm gonna say is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-
ty for reading this is a mess I'll regret it later-