TangledUpInBlue
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Hey all,
New to the group. Married for 15 years, and I’ve never felt more lonely in my entire life. I used to to be so good at connecting with people. I always had tons of friends and was always involved in so many different activities. I married a person who hates and judges everyone around her. It took me years to realize that it is because deep down, she hates herself and therefore can’t truly love anyone, including me. I’ve spent 15 years trying to “fix” her not realizing that I basically cut off everyone and everything else that was ever important to me. Any time I’ve tried to do anything for myself, my own growth or enjoyment, I’ve been made to feel selfish or a bad husband/dad.
We have 2 kids, and I have no friends. We‘ve always lived far from my family, so I’ve never really had much of a support system. For the first time I’m actually starting to realize (admit?) that I am an actual person with needs and feelings. I just miss human connection, in any/all forms. Thanks for listening. I appreciate the openness and genuine nature of this community.
New to the group. Married for 15 years, and I’ve never felt more lonely in my entire life. I used to to be so good at connecting with people. I always had tons of friends and was always involved in so many different activities. I married a person who hates and judges everyone around her. It took me years to realize that it is because deep down, she hates herself and therefore can’t truly love anyone, including me. I’ve spent 15 years trying to “fix” her not realizing that I basically cut off everyone and everything else that was ever important to me. Any time I’ve tried to do anything for myself, my own growth or enjoyment, I’ve been made to feel selfish or a bad husband/dad.
We have 2 kids, and I have no friends. We‘ve always lived far from my family, so I’ve never really had much of a support system. For the first time I’m actually starting to realize (admit?) that I am an actual person with needs and feelings. I just miss human connection, in any/all forms. Thanks for listening. I appreciate the openness and genuine nature of this community.