Estreen
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It's 7:30 in the morning...I haven't slept at all....and I just feel that hole, gaping and wide, in the center of me.
I don't know anything....I can't think of really ANYTHING that would actually make me happy right now...anything to satisfy this hole in my being. Suicide *almost* sounds reasonable, but in actuality I am too scared to die, so I am stuck in my own little purgatory right now.
I don't know what I want...with just about everything in my life. Sometimes I think it's just needing more people around me, but...right now I can't really think of anyone that I'd care to have around...I'm just confusing myself more and more...and I'm not sure if I'll ever figure myself out, sometimes.
Right now I'm (physically) alone, lonely, and crying. Think I might just try to settle for crying myself to sleep. I think that's about all I've got right now...
I don't know anything....I can't think of really ANYTHING that would actually make me happy right now...anything to satisfy this hole in my being. Suicide *almost* sounds reasonable, but in actuality I am too scared to die, so I am stuck in my own little purgatory right now.
I don't know what I want...with just about everything in my life. Sometimes I think it's just needing more people around me, but...right now I can't really think of anyone that I'd care to have around...I'm just confusing myself more and more...and I'm not sure if I'll ever figure myself out, sometimes.
Right now I'm (physically) alone, lonely, and crying. Think I might just try to settle for crying myself to sleep. I think that's about all I've got right now...