x moonlit rage x
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im a 20 something from boston massachusetts. im alone in the world. i spend my days locked in my house. no visitors except for my parents who drop by unannounced. my family makes me feel like im a loser. i have extreme social paranoia issues. i always feel like the people around me have hidden motives. everyone hates me anyways. they pick on me, they tell me that ill never find someone to love me and that happiness will never find its way into my heart. dont get me wrong, ive been a fresia up for a while now. but ive managed to have some good times. however, everything turned upside down about 2 years ago. i slipped into a deep depression, lost all my friends and now im alone. i try so hard to make an effort to appear normal, even for a short period of time. but eventually my mind wanders and i feel like the room is moving around me while i sit still. everyone i see is doing something with their lives. and me? ive got germaphobia, social anxiety, clinical depression, bipolar, a.d.d.... the list goes on. im doomed to be alone. sometimes i get lost in my thoughts. i find myself daydreaming all day. wondering about the life i could have if i had just one loyal friend. someone who can decode me and make it feel normal for once. i need a friend who can give me a reason to live outside of my daydreams.... its so lonely in here