Tramp
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So I've been a member for a while now, but haven't really managed a post until now. While there are quite a few threads that I would like to respond to, I figured it would be a better idea to introduce myself first, so that people could get to know a little about me.
As I mentioned, I have gone through a number of posts here and I believe I suffer from loneliness of a rather different kind. While the core of the problem is the same, the parameters are not so common (or so I think).
I am a 23 year old male who does not necessarily have trouble mixing with people and making friends. I work as a software engineer and love what I do. I go out with friends and colleagues now and then and share good times with them. Yet, I feel lonely. I feel a void, as if something is missing in life.
I am not really an extrovert either, which makes me a good talker once I get to know someone, but I find it difficult to maintain contact. I may have fun with friends one day, but will be very lonely for a good few weeks or even months before engaging in social activities again. There are too many weekends (like this one, for example) when everyone else seems to be busy with their friends/significant others, and I find myself browsing the internet at home and such, wishing I had people to go out and watch a movie or share some drinks with.
Then there are times when I don't feel very comfortable with the way I look. These are times when I wish I were better looking. I have had a few relationships, but things haven't gone too well lately, and I believe that may have something to do with this feeling.
The good part about my situation, I guess, is that I always hope. I hope for better times; I hope that I will have someone to spend weekends with, that I will have people to talk to when I get home after work. I just grind it out and let the state of depression wane away. I try to convince myself that life is meant to be like this, and I, being a very ordinary person probably don't deserve any better.
I am not sure I am making a whole lot of sense here. I guess it is just one of those times when you have a flurry of emotions but don't really have the ability to put them in words to actually describe how you're feeling. In any case, now that I have attempted to express myself, I intend to spend some of my lonely times here, talking about other people, myself, and all the other kinds of things that are usually discussed here.
As I mentioned, I have gone through a number of posts here and I believe I suffer from loneliness of a rather different kind. While the core of the problem is the same, the parameters are not so common (or so I think).
I am a 23 year old male who does not necessarily have trouble mixing with people and making friends. I work as a software engineer and love what I do. I go out with friends and colleagues now and then and share good times with them. Yet, I feel lonely. I feel a void, as if something is missing in life.
I am not really an extrovert either, which makes me a good talker once I get to know someone, but I find it difficult to maintain contact. I may have fun with friends one day, but will be very lonely for a good few weeks or even months before engaging in social activities again. There are too many weekends (like this one, for example) when everyone else seems to be busy with their friends/significant others, and I find myself browsing the internet at home and such, wishing I had people to go out and watch a movie or share some drinks with.
Then there are times when I don't feel very comfortable with the way I look. These are times when I wish I were better looking. I have had a few relationships, but things haven't gone too well lately, and I believe that may have something to do with this feeling.
The good part about my situation, I guess, is that I always hope. I hope for better times; I hope that I will have someone to spend weekends with, that I will have people to talk to when I get home after work. I just grind it out and let the state of depression wane away. I try to convince myself that life is meant to be like this, and I, being a very ordinary person probably don't deserve any better.
I am not sure I am making a whole lot of sense here. I guess it is just one of those times when you have a flurry of emotions but don't really have the ability to put them in words to actually describe how you're feeling. In any case, now that I have attempted to express myself, I intend to spend some of my lonely times here, talking about other people, myself, and all the other kinds of things that are usually discussed here.
