Divinitywolf
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*Basically I've said what I wanted to say and someone PMed me the relevant advice I found helpful. I'm a bit conscious of this being up online in case someone that knows me, finds it. Is it possible to delete the thread?*
Hey all.
Basically I was on a game online, just out of boredom I was playing it, hadn't done for a while and during the game people were cheating and it was generally not fun... This girl was playing and she added me on msn so we could chat.
Since that day I've found her to be the most amazing, interesting person I've ever met online and I wish I knew her in real life. She's unique in some ways, normal in others and has the most interesting life.
We generally talk for hours each day on msn and, as much as you can do knowing someone online, I've come to almost love her. Its strange as I've never felt this strongly about someone, not even in real life and I've no idea why she's made such an impact on me.
The only trouble is that she lives in Ireland and I live in england. Ok so its not that bad as she could've been living in america or australia. But her being within travelling distance has just made my affection stronger.
I know she likes me as a friend and a person and she does think I'm attractive but I don't know if she likes me more than that. But worse still is that she seems to live an amazing life and whenever she talks about it, I'm filled with so much longing to have a life like that.
So basically when I bring myself down to reality, I know that its unlikely we'll ever meet up (although in a couple of years she may be coming to uni in england) and its more than likely that our friendship will just fade away over the years like all the other ones... Whenever I talk with her I get this ache in my chest and such a strong longing to have been born near her to share her life. The harsh reality of my situation is becoming unbearable and i'm losing sleep over it, waking up during the night and feeling more and more depressed, especially when talking to her.
So I find it almost unbearable to talk with her yet would find it even more unbearable to break off communication with her.
I don't want to tell her any of this because burdening her with my problems would make me feel guilty.
I just don't know what to do...
Hey all.
Basically I was on a game online, just out of boredom I was playing it, hadn't done for a while and during the game people were cheating and it was generally not fun... This girl was playing and she added me on msn so we could chat.
Since that day I've found her to be the most amazing, interesting person I've ever met online and I wish I knew her in real life. She's unique in some ways, normal in others and has the most interesting life.
We generally talk for hours each day on msn and, as much as you can do knowing someone online, I've come to almost love her. Its strange as I've never felt this strongly about someone, not even in real life and I've no idea why she's made such an impact on me.
The only trouble is that she lives in Ireland and I live in england. Ok so its not that bad as she could've been living in america or australia. But her being within travelling distance has just made my affection stronger.
I know she likes me as a friend and a person and she does think I'm attractive but I don't know if she likes me more than that. But worse still is that she seems to live an amazing life and whenever she talks about it, I'm filled with so much longing to have a life like that.
So basically when I bring myself down to reality, I know that its unlikely we'll ever meet up (although in a couple of years she may be coming to uni in england) and its more than likely that our friendship will just fade away over the years like all the other ones... Whenever I talk with her I get this ache in my chest and such a strong longing to have been born near her to share her life. The harsh reality of my situation is becoming unbearable and i'm losing sleep over it, waking up during the night and feeling more and more depressed, especially when talking to her.
So I find it almost unbearable to talk with her yet would find it even more unbearable to break off communication with her.
I don't want to tell her any of this because burdening her with my problems would make me feel guilty.
I just don't know what to do...