Jesse
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In the last week I've been talking to a wonderful woman. She's beautiful, has quite a lot in common with me, a lot of the same interests, and same beliefs. She really seems pretty much perfect.
Problem is I'm afraid of letting this person in. It's hard to accept that the only person keeping me from being in a relationship is myself. It's hard to accept that I actually can attract someone.
I dropped her off last night. It was our first date- it was so awesome spending time with her, but on my way home I got very depressed. I kept thinking, "I don't know why she'd want to be with me", "She'll find someone some day, she doesn't need me", "She could do much better than me", "What am I doing with her- she's amazing".
It's hard to let go of being alone. I wish it wasn't. My heart tells me I want to be with her.
Problem is I'm afraid of letting this person in. It's hard to accept that the only person keeping me from being in a relationship is myself. It's hard to accept that I actually can attract someone.
I dropped her off last night. It was our first date- it was so awesome spending time with her, but on my way home I got very depressed. I kept thinking, "I don't know why she'd want to be with me", "She'll find someone some day, she doesn't need me", "She could do much better than me", "What am I doing with her- she's amazing".
It's hard to let go of being alone. I wish it wasn't. My heart tells me I want to be with her.