Almost 6 months ago I met someone, we connected from day 1, I trusted him completely and fell in love with him head over heels. He was my best and only friend, I tried to be there for him all the time, I tried to help, I tried so much.
Today was our last conversation.
He said he needs space, that does not want to have any relationship with anyone, not even a friendship.
I am trying to hold myself together. I lost my job, I am living with my parents, but I had a friend that I loved with all my heart.
Today I lost that friend. I don't know how to feel. I am just here asking God for help, tears just falling and falling from my eyes. Trying not to blame myself for him not even wanting to talk to me. But why does everyone run from me? I wish I knew what is wrong with me.
I didn't even get to say a proper good by I think he just said I can't and hung up. I guess he wanted to avoid the crying from my side. I guess his feelings for me are gone. So what do I do now?
what do I do with my feelings? How do I stop blaming myself? How do I stop asking myself if someone will ever be able to love me back?
Please God help me.
At least I know I gave it all. I don't know if that makes it better or worse. I gave it all and my friend is gone.
I hope I will hear from him again someday. I hope things get better in his life I wish him only the best, love and happiness.
Today was our last conversation.
He said he needs space, that does not want to have any relationship with anyone, not even a friendship.
I am trying to hold myself together. I lost my job, I am living with my parents, but I had a friend that I loved with all my heart.
Today I lost that friend. I don't know how to feel. I am just here asking God for help, tears just falling and falling from my eyes. Trying not to blame myself for him not even wanting to talk to me. But why does everyone run from me? I wish I knew what is wrong with me.
I didn't even get to say a proper good by I think he just said I can't and hung up. I guess he wanted to avoid the crying from my side. I guess his feelings for me are gone. So what do I do now?
what do I do with my feelings? How do I stop blaming myself? How do I stop asking myself if someone will ever be able to love me back?
Please God help me.
At least I know I gave it all. I don't know if that makes it better or worse. I gave it all and my friend is gone.
I hope I will hear from him again someday. I hope things get better in his life I wish him only the best, love and happiness.