I've been going through a particularly rough patch in life without my best friend. We didn't speak for a year (his decision) for the most part. He'd reappear every so often saying how he missed me and loved me (as a friend), I know him better than everyone else, and thought of me every day, etc. Well finally we met face to face and agreed to make amends. The only problem is that he has a girlfriend now. I had feelings for him before the girlfriend was in the picture, but during our 1+ years apart he has one. I thought I didnt have the feelings anymore until I found out he has a girlfriend and cried.
I don't want to break up a relationship. I miss my best friend. But should I put myself in internal turmoil over this? Should I not talk to him until they break up (if they break up)? While I take comfort that even though he was in a steady relationship he still missed me, I still try finding myself trying to see cues that he may have some feelings for me. Before we stopped talking there was definitely a time when things were very intimate and potentially romantic (saying i love you at the end of convos, talking constantly, cuddling, etc).
Then again I wonder if it's all in my head and I just think I still have feelings because he has a girlfriend. However I don't think that's entirely the case because I have cut very close friends off without any remorse. He was someone I thought about daily.
This is so stupid I can't believe I have fallen into the cliche. WHY DIDN'T ANYONE WARN ME HOW EASY (and crappy) THIS IS? >_>
I don't want to break up a relationship. I miss my best friend. But should I put myself in internal turmoil over this? Should I not talk to him until they break up (if they break up)? While I take comfort that even though he was in a steady relationship he still missed me, I still try finding myself trying to see cues that he may have some feelings for me. Before we stopped talking there was definitely a time when things were very intimate and potentially romantic (saying i love you at the end of convos, talking constantly, cuddling, etc).
Then again I wonder if it's all in my head and I just think I still have feelings because he has a girlfriend. However I don't think that's entirely the case because I have cut very close friends off without any remorse. He was someone I thought about daily.
This is so stupid I can't believe I have fallen into the cliche. WHY DIDN'T ANYONE WARN ME HOW EASY (and crappy) THIS IS? >_>