So awfull at work today. Really horrible. It's hard to explain but here goes.
For the last 7 months I've been hopelessly in love with this woman I used to work with. Now it's always bad because women never like me back and it's happened to me quite a few times. Anyway this woman is very attractive and I never did think I had any chance with her. She left my work in January and since then we have sort of kept in touch. I have seen her three times. Once she came to have a cuppa with me at work and another time she came to golf with me. We had 2 hours on the golf course together, it was great. (Golf is my main hobby and it was her idea to caddy for me !)
That was two months ago and we've exchanged a few facebook messages since. I used to send her text messages but she hardly ever replies so I stopped. She's mentioned playing golf again a couple of times. So hopefully it will happen.
All this I can cope with. I know we won't ever be together. But as long as we keep in touch and I get to see occasionally. That's fine.
The trouble is all the gossip at work. Ever since she started people have been saying the married boss is screwing her. I must admit I have seen a few suspicious things but I have chosen to ignore them. The woman actually left our work because the boss's wife accussed them of having an affair. At the time the story was they were not. This woman looked me in the eye and said she would never with a married man. So I believed her. I can tell from her facebook she has male friends. There is no point in me worrying about it. There is nothing I can do. The boss however, is a old, fat, moody pig. I hate him, he has no manners whatsoever. Everybody thinks it, women included yet he has this reputation as a ladies man.
Anyway all it was today was people talking about them. Whispering and smirking and saying things. I try not to listen, I don't want to know. I would rather not know. I try and keep out the way but all I hear is comments about them. It makes me sick. It just makes me so unhappy and sad and some people were saying I was quiet. I don't care what they say when I'm not there but all this whispering does my head in.
So I don't know what to do about it. When she left I thought all the gossiping would die away but it hasn't. I was going to ask her to golf with me in a couple of weeks but I'm not sure now. She has mentioned going again three times now.
I have no friends really and I never go out. I play golf with my Dad and I see people at work. That's it ! Having friends is nice and I enjoy it.
For the last 7 months I've been hopelessly in love with this woman I used to work with. Now it's always bad because women never like me back and it's happened to me quite a few times. Anyway this woman is very attractive and I never did think I had any chance with her. She left my work in January and since then we have sort of kept in touch. I have seen her three times. Once she came to have a cuppa with me at work and another time she came to golf with me. We had 2 hours on the golf course together, it was great. (Golf is my main hobby and it was her idea to caddy for me !)
That was two months ago and we've exchanged a few facebook messages since. I used to send her text messages but she hardly ever replies so I stopped. She's mentioned playing golf again a couple of times. So hopefully it will happen.
All this I can cope with. I know we won't ever be together. But as long as we keep in touch and I get to see occasionally. That's fine.
The trouble is all the gossip at work. Ever since she started people have been saying the married boss is screwing her. I must admit I have seen a few suspicious things but I have chosen to ignore them. The woman actually left our work because the boss's wife accussed them of having an affair. At the time the story was they were not. This woman looked me in the eye and said she would never with a married man. So I believed her. I can tell from her facebook she has male friends. There is no point in me worrying about it. There is nothing I can do. The boss however, is a old, fat, moody pig. I hate him, he has no manners whatsoever. Everybody thinks it, women included yet he has this reputation as a ladies man.
Anyway all it was today was people talking about them. Whispering and smirking and saying things. I try not to listen, I don't want to know. I would rather not know. I try and keep out the way but all I hear is comments about them. It makes me sick. It just makes me so unhappy and sad and some people were saying I was quiet. I don't care what they say when I'm not there but all this whispering does my head in.
So I don't know what to do about it. When she left I thought all the gossiping would die away but it hasn't. I was going to ask her to golf with me in a couple of weeks but I'm not sure now. She has mentioned going again three times now.
I have no friends really and I never go out. I play golf with my Dad and I see people at work. That's it ! Having friends is nice and I enjoy it.