before the funeral

[sallekhana]

i hate valentines day, love, couples, and snow.
i hate colors, happiness, laughter, and smiles.

i hate a warm cup of coffee in the cold morning
as the frost settles on my window,
i hate the warmth of a shower that washes away
the grunge from my grease mat of hair,
and with a passion as strong as your love
i hate the first cigarette of the day
out in the cold surround by dew flecked leaves.

i hate the day, night, noon, and dawn.
i hate tears, cheeks, blue eyes, and beauty.

i hate the warmth in my chest from the alcohol
in the middle of the lonely night,
i hate the smell and constant taste of cigarettes
outside the house,
and most of all i hate the way he thinks shaking
my hand is gonna make me feel beetter
or that a stupid smile is gonna make me
think he doesn't know i'm drunk.

 

[SophiaGrace]

Hmn...sounds like Cynicism