Midlands Lad - U.K.
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I ended up here through typing in google “Lost all of my friends”. Over the years I’ve had some fantastic friends and I’ve always been able to easily make friends and be seen by some to be quite “popular” – this is a complete lie.
Like I said I’ve had some fantastic friends, I’m now 32 years old and when I look back over the last 15 years since I left School I think I’ve had around 50 good friends. The only problem is one by one they’ve all been friends with me for a few years until I’ve either been nasty to them, threatened them after drinking alcohol or been nasty about them behind their backs.
I now find myself at an age where it’s difficult to make new friends or to stop my behaviour that makes me loose friends.
I believe that I’ve got Borderline Personality Disorder. I can be very charming, friendly and funny one day, then nasty and off with people the next. I find myself falling out with people over the smallest things. I bear grudges and can be a nasty person.
The thing that I find the most strange is the fact that I have always tended to meet new friends easily as I’ve gone along, whilst falling out with older friends – this seems to happen in a constant cycle.
I find it all very depressing and wish I could go back in time and change my behaviour. I just wish I could be nice to people and keep friends.
I would like to know if anyone else out there has had similar symptoms to this and how they have dealt with them.
Like I said I’ve had some fantastic friends, I’m now 32 years old and when I look back over the last 15 years since I left School I think I’ve had around 50 good friends. The only problem is one by one they’ve all been friends with me for a few years until I’ve either been nasty to them, threatened them after drinking alcohol or been nasty about them behind their backs.
I now find myself at an age where it’s difficult to make new friends or to stop my behaviour that makes me loose friends.
I believe that I’ve got Borderline Personality Disorder. I can be very charming, friendly and funny one day, then nasty and off with people the next. I find myself falling out with people over the smallest things. I bear grudges and can be a nasty person.
The thing that I find the most strange is the fact that I have always tended to meet new friends easily as I’ve gone along, whilst falling out with older friends – this seems to happen in a constant cycle.
I find it all very depressing and wish I could go back in time and change my behaviour. I just wish I could be nice to people and keep friends.
I would like to know if anyone else out there has had similar symptoms to this and how they have dealt with them.