Richardalexander
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Hi
I joined a month ago or so, described my situation here http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=9119, I've been wandering around a few sites and found that the people who I can relate to in terms of sheer pain, are mainly at suicideforum.com
I made a few connections there, and they are all 2000 miles away in the US. Sweet.
My dream of IRL friendship still as far away as ever, then.
To cut a long story short (its in the post) I have been forced to live the life of a recluse, when in fact I am outgoing and extrovert. My mother did this to me. Having just escaped her at 21, with a quarter of my life down the toilet, I can't just waltz into life. My self esteem has been completely raped.
I have made a single online friend from England, 1hr from Kent where I live. She needs me almost as much as I need her, coming from an abusive family herself. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I find it hard to relate to anyone who isn't cripplingly lonely themselves. Anyway I play guitar for hours on end, as a substitute for parents and friends. But its a shitty substitute.
how to put this....well, i'm pathetically trawling the internet for someone, anyone!!
Anyway I'll stay at lonelylife for a bit more, then might look at other places
Rich
I joined a month ago or so, described my situation here http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=9119, I've been wandering around a few sites and found that the people who I can relate to in terms of sheer pain, are mainly at suicideforum.com
I made a few connections there, and they are all 2000 miles away in the US. Sweet.
My dream of IRL friendship still as far away as ever, then.
To cut a long story short (its in the post) I have been forced to live the life of a recluse, when in fact I am outgoing and extrovert. My mother did this to me. Having just escaped her at 21, with a quarter of my life down the toilet, I can't just waltz into life. My self esteem has been completely raped.
I have made a single online friend from England, 1hr from Kent where I live. She needs me almost as much as I need her, coming from an abusive family herself. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I find it hard to relate to anyone who isn't cripplingly lonely themselves. Anyway I play guitar for hours on end, as a substitute for parents and friends. But its a shitty substitute.
how to put this....well, i'm pathetically trawling the internet for someone, anyone!!
Anyway I'll stay at lonelylife for a bit more, then might look at other places
Rich
