I got a crush on a girl at a very young age about 12 years ago... and still can't get her out of my mind. I think about her every day, even without trying to. The most random thing makes me think of her.
I knew her for a few years when we were young, then I moved away about 8 years ago and never forgot about her. About 4 years ago we started talking online and whatnot. I actually went and hung out with her and her friend (who was also my friend long ago) and we had some laughs and whatnot. Her friend kinda has the idea that I like her, but I'm pretty sure she has no clue that I've been thinking about her for 12 years.
I don't know what to do. I kinda hate the fact that I think about her. After talking with her again after so long, I kinda realize that she's not the person that I thought her to be. She drinks, does occasional drugs, and is just not someone I'd normally hang around with anymore. I'm not into any of that. But she's still the same person I knew forever ago, and a part of me loves the hell out of her...
I still live far away from her, so a relationship would be kinda pointless, but I wouldn't have the courage to even say anything to her. At this point, I don't even WANT to say anything to her. I want to forget her, but I can't.
I'm not sure what else to type... If anyone wants to know anything else, just ask. I'm just looking for any help or info as to how to stop thinking about her.
Ps. Yes I know this is stupid, so don't remind me with a redundant post.
I knew her for a few years when we were young, then I moved away about 8 years ago and never forgot about her. About 4 years ago we started talking online and whatnot. I actually went and hung out with her and her friend (who was also my friend long ago) and we had some laughs and whatnot. Her friend kinda has the idea that I like her, but I'm pretty sure she has no clue that I've been thinking about her for 12 years.
I don't know what to do. I kinda hate the fact that I think about her. After talking with her again after so long, I kinda realize that she's not the person that I thought her to be. She drinks, does occasional drugs, and is just not someone I'd normally hang around with anymore. I'm not into any of that. But she's still the same person I knew forever ago, and a part of me loves the hell out of her...
I still live far away from her, so a relationship would be kinda pointless, but I wouldn't have the courage to even say anything to her. At this point, I don't even WANT to say anything to her. I want to forget her, but I can't.
I'm not sure what else to type... If anyone wants to know anything else, just ask. I'm just looking for any help or info as to how to stop thinking about her.
Ps. Yes I know this is stupid, so don't remind me with a redundant post.