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[isthatso]

A precious life was lost last year.
The life of my wife.
Her death and her life have thrown my mind into profound chaos.
I've seen photos of her as a child. She was an only child and a lonely child. She suffered trauma. It made her cynical about life.
But I was privileged to spend 32 years with this beautiful soul. A wounded bird with a feisty game face.
I disappointed her by not being the father figure she needed. Not all the time but a lot of the time. Maybe I regained some respect towards the end. I will never know.
When you lose a loved one, it's a huge shock. Life is fragile after all. You realise you were living in a delusion, thinking both of you were immortal.
We aren't. We will die. Sooner or later. Question how you spend every minute of your day. Time is running out.

 

[user 150037]

You are good with words. As they say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

 

[Minus]

I am so sorry for your loss. After so many years that has to leave
a major void. I hope with time it becomes easier to get through the day.