TRed
New member
Back when I was younger, my lonesome tendencies caused me a lot of trouble. I was living in fear of the outside world. I had no sense of self, no social skills- no spine when it came down to it. Depression was a constant in my life; I lacked the determination and discipline to accomplish my goals, to be someone.
10 years later, I'm a different person. I'm no longer afraid. Anything I ever dreamed of doing, I can do. I've become so good at playing the role of the functioning extrovert that, for a moment, I surprised myself by signing up here. In the end, however, I'm still holed up in my room, by myself, with nowhere to go, just like I've been all these past years. Like I don't want anybody or to have anyplace else to go, in a way. Like those kinds of things were never in the cards for me.
The only change to the time I spend alone is the copious amount of alcohol I'm consuming, as well as the fact that I tend to eat like a pig. So cheers, my lonely friends. The bottom of the bottle may not be the answer, but it does raise some interesting questions for the time being. It's not like anyone can see me, anyway.
10 years later, I'm a different person. I'm no longer afraid. Anything I ever dreamed of doing, I can do. I've become so good at playing the role of the functioning extrovert that, for a moment, I surprised myself by signing up here. In the end, however, I'm still holed up in my room, by myself, with nowhere to go, just like I've been all these past years. Like I don't want anybody or to have anyplace else to go, in a way. Like those kinds of things were never in the cards for me.
The only change to the time I spend alone is the copious amount of alcohol I'm consuming, as well as the fact that I tend to eat like a pig. So cheers, my lonely friends. The bottom of the bottle may not be the answer, but it does raise some interesting questions for the time being. It's not like anyone can see me, anyway.
