JudeDismas
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I've been thinking about this a lot lately, after realizing that there isn't a lot of meet ups near me and the few meet ups that I do attend having few meetings or significantly older members. Long story short, I don't have much opportunity to make friends and even if I did, I have absolutely no experience making friends and would likely face an uphill battle if I tried to make one. And of course, it should go without saying that I have no girlfriend, and honestly, why would any woman want to go out with a short, friendless loser. I've spent a lot of the past year trying to make friends and, ultimately, it caused me a lot of pain, sadness, and anxiety.
At the same time, I have a lot to look forward to, a lot to be grateful for. I have parents who love me and have provided me with shelter, internet, air-conditioning and all sorts of other luxuries many would love to have. I'm currently in Graduate school for a Masters in Library Science, and I feel fairly confident that when I graduate in a couple of years I can find a job somewhere that'll pay my bills and let me buy my own apartment. I get along with my coworkers at my current job, they're friendly to me and I often make them laugh, and I imagine I could do the same at my next job. Lastly, I do have hobbies: walking, jogging, sometimes biking, reading graphic novels, sorta playing guitar, video games, and iphone-photography. Perhaps I don't need friends or a girlfriend to live a happy life with what I have?
Maybe if I just put to rest my fantasies of having band, becoming a great artist,going to Halloween parties, and having a romantic relationship, I could be perfectly content with life alone. On a normal day I could jog in the morning, enjoy the friendly if shallow relationships I have at work, then come home and play video games or guitar, or maybe go out for a walk and take some photographs. If I ever desperately need comfort or companionship, I could call my parents or perhaps buy a dog or something. And when I get bored of the same old routine, I could take a vacation to Washington D.C. or Europe, or maybe just go to the local amusement park, that can all be fun alone, can't it? The only problem would of course come when my parents eventually die and I'll have no close relationships left. But, since all of my social obligations will die with them, well, I can go ahead wrap up my life.
Does this sound feasible? Is it possible for a person to be content completely alone? Can I make myself not feel lonely, or will I always wish for companionship?
At the same time, I have a lot to look forward to, a lot to be grateful for. I have parents who love me and have provided me with shelter, internet, air-conditioning and all sorts of other luxuries many would love to have. I'm currently in Graduate school for a Masters in Library Science, and I feel fairly confident that when I graduate in a couple of years I can find a job somewhere that'll pay my bills and let me buy my own apartment. I get along with my coworkers at my current job, they're friendly to me and I often make them laugh, and I imagine I could do the same at my next job. Lastly, I do have hobbies: walking, jogging, sometimes biking, reading graphic novels, sorta playing guitar, video games, and iphone-photography. Perhaps I don't need friends or a girlfriend to live a happy life with what I have?
Maybe if I just put to rest my fantasies of having band, becoming a great artist,going to Halloween parties, and having a romantic relationship, I could be perfectly content with life alone. On a normal day I could jog in the morning, enjoy the friendly if shallow relationships I have at work, then come home and play video games or guitar, or maybe go out for a walk and take some photographs. If I ever desperately need comfort or companionship, I could call my parents or perhaps buy a dog or something. And when I get bored of the same old routine, I could take a vacation to Washington D.C. or Europe, or maybe just go to the local amusement park, that can all be fun alone, can't it? The only problem would of course come when my parents eventually die and I'll have no close relationships left. But, since all of my social obligations will die with them, well, I can go ahead wrap up my life.
Does this sound feasible? Is it possible for a person to be content completely alone? Can I make myself not feel lonely, or will I always wish for companionship?