Where do i even start? Since the age of 12, when i started getting depressed and isolating myself, i also started to create a life in my head, and at first it was your you know average fangirl daydreaming being married to some actor and you had a great life and yadyayda you get the idea.. But this started to get worse, the more isolated i became the more intense the life inside my head became, i had created different stories and i was not always in them.. but now, I keep dreaming/living in my head in this futuristic idea of what my life will be like, i have almost dreamt it so long i can't imagine a real life happening.. or what will really happen, All i see is my perfect future.. and it is very unrealistic, i mean not impossible but.. i know it won't happen. The problem also is, i talk to myself in this future, when my parents are out of the house i often make up a conversation i have with my husband, or an interview i am in (i am a famous filmmaker in my dream) Stuff like that, Sometimes i think maybe i just need someone to talk too then it would go away. The problem is that the least bit of freetime, basically when i am not having a conversation i jump into this world, it does not matter if i am out in public, having dinner with my family.. i just jump right into it.. It makes me feel less lonely of course.. but it's getting unbearable not fully living my real life, i mean daydreaming a bit sure.. but all the time? That can't be healthy.. I have tried to stop.. to try and live more in the moment.. but i can't and i just feel almost like a prisoner in this utopia.. I really don't know how to explain it, i mostly daydream when i listen to music.. I am just asking if anybody else have this problem? If anybody have but it went away? Or any tips on how i can stop doing it soo much!?.. im just desperate..