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ScorpioIris
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I feel like life is tourturing me right now. All I have is my mom, dad, and my brother. I have no friends. I just broke up with my boyfriend because he was too busy touring with his band not having a back-up plan for his life. He is 25 years old and has no car, license, GED/high school diploma, no drive to go to college. The only reason why I held on too him for so long was because I loved him and he was all I had. His friends are all pigs. My ex-boyfriend is also a type 1 diabetic and he gets drunk all the time. I can't even make it through the work day without crying. I'm so depressed. I had to excuse myself to the bathroom twice this week at work just to cry. I feel like my life just gets worse. It never gets better. Ever since the death of my son, things just keep going down hill. They never get better. For those who didn't read my introduction forum: I lost my son from shaken baby syndrome. My ex husband shook him while I was at the library. This happened about three years ago and I haven't been able to function normally since then. I'm not the same person anymore. I wish I could have the old me back, but it seems like it will never happen. I think I have Bipolar disorder. I have severe mood changes, paranoid delusions, and some serious depression. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so lost.