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wzt_hearts
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i can't connect w/ people at all. Every time I'm out @ a party w/ some friends it seems like all my friends are getting along w/ everyone and talking to girls while I'm in the corner talking to myself in my head trying to overcome my social anxiety.
i get more depressed as every new day turns it's page just waiting until I reach the end of my book, the only thing is it just feels like i'm turning pages and not actually writing anything down. most people look back on their teens & 20's as a fun time in their life, but i haven't did anything since 15 but go on the internet and play games all because I'm too scared to go out and talk to people. I'm 22 now and almost to the point of offing myself.
also, I don't have any real idea about my own self. i always think people don't really notice me because maybe i'm not attractive enough or something, so i figure if someone does notice me it would just be negative attention. I don't think of myself as unattractive though, at least I hope not, because that's pretty much all I have to get someone to notice me. I'm not an interesting person at all (from doing nothing my entire life, but work)& I could never just go up to a girl I thought was cute and talk to her. I wish I could just find that one girl & companion to just have someone to share my memories and life with (if only I could have that)
I've been sleeping a lot & not because I'm tired, but it actually makes me feel better to sleep & pretend that I'm fast forwarding my life.
i get more depressed as every new day turns it's page just waiting until I reach the end of my book, the only thing is it just feels like i'm turning pages and not actually writing anything down. most people look back on their teens & 20's as a fun time in their life, but i haven't did anything since 15 but go on the internet and play games all because I'm too scared to go out and talk to people. I'm 22 now and almost to the point of offing myself.
also, I don't have any real idea about my own self. i always think people don't really notice me because maybe i'm not attractive enough or something, so i figure if someone does notice me it would just be negative attention. I don't think of myself as unattractive though, at least I hope not, because that's pretty much all I have to get someone to notice me. I'm not an interesting person at all (from doing nothing my entire life, but work)& I could never just go up to a girl I thought was cute and talk to her. I wish I could just find that one girl & companion to just have someone to share my memories and life with (if only I could have that)
I've been sleeping a lot & not because I'm tired, but it actually makes me feel better to sleep & pretend that I'm fast forwarding my life.