Carcass Raid
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Thought I wouldn't need to come back and spill my guts here but here I am. It's because I was happy for a while.
See I had split up with my wife because of relationship issues (if you want the full story you can search) and after a couple of months of being away we finally got back together. At least I thought we were anyway. She moved back in and in the beginning it was wonderful. I was so happy and so was she. But I've found out today that she came back because she "ran out of options" to go anywhere because she couldn't afford her apartment.
That alone stung me pretty badly but when I questioned why she wasn't being very lovey anymore she said it's because she didn't feel anything. That this little dead end town was making her feel like that. She didn't want to give me much info but to almost every question I asked she said "I don't know." Even when I asked if after I had the money to get her out of here if she wanted me to be with her and she gave me that answer well...I couldn't help but feel right there that she was leaving me for a second time.
If you don't know if you love someone after being with them for so long then doesn't that mean you pretty much don't love them? It definitely doesn't mean that you DO. And so I feel like I'm in relationship limbo. I'm taken but it doesn't matter to her. I don't want to split up with her. She makes a big deal out of me being hers sometimes but now I just don't know what to believe if she doesn't even want me around later. It's like I'm a temporary lover or something.
This hurts too much, ALL. And I feel bad because she brought up "How do you think I feel?" and until she brought it up I hadn't thought about it. I only felt what was hurting me. And how she could just...let something like this go on for so long without even telling me anything. It's a lot like...being in the friend zone I guess you'd say.
FML.
See I had split up with my wife because of relationship issues (if you want the full story you can search) and after a couple of months of being away we finally got back together. At least I thought we were anyway. She moved back in and in the beginning it was wonderful. I was so happy and so was she. But I've found out today that she came back because she "ran out of options" to go anywhere because she couldn't afford her apartment.
That alone stung me pretty badly but when I questioned why she wasn't being very lovey anymore she said it's because she didn't feel anything. That this little dead end town was making her feel like that. She didn't want to give me much info but to almost every question I asked she said "I don't know." Even when I asked if after I had the money to get her out of here if she wanted me to be with her and she gave me that answer well...I couldn't help but feel right there that she was leaving me for a second time.
If you don't know if you love someone after being with them for so long then doesn't that mean you pretty much don't love them? It definitely doesn't mean that you DO. And so I feel like I'm in relationship limbo. I'm taken but it doesn't matter to her. I don't want to split up with her. She makes a big deal out of me being hers sometimes but now I just don't know what to believe if she doesn't even want me around later. It's like I'm a temporary lover or something.
This hurts too much, ALL. And I feel bad because she brought up "How do you think I feel?" and until she brought it up I hadn't thought about it. I only felt what was hurting me. And how she could just...let something like this go on for so long without even telling me anything. It's a lot like...being in the friend zone I guess you'd say.
FML.