I believe that my greatest fear i could possibly think of is the fear of disappointment. One of the worst feelings ive ever had was to disappoint someone else. I have disappointed myself enough to the point where i cant even trust myself anymore. I couldnt even finish the workout i set up for myself today.
Its crazy, im more scared of the fact that i would disappoint someone in the near future than the fact that i will die someday. I'm not sure if its normal to fear anything worse than death. Im not even sure how to deal with this problem.
I have cured my depression, yet these thoughts keep pouring into my head.
Can i live up to everyone's expectations? Can i really be the kind of person everyone believes i can be? Thinking about sports, i told a coach my times and he said i need to get slightly faster to be a walk on for that school. He also said he is expecting me to get faster. My aunt also told me today that she was expecting me to get Straight A's. My mom was expecting me to get a job by the end of the year. My coach is expecting me to be better by the time we finish mid-terms. And my rival in my races from another school is expecting me to keep up with him.
When someone expects something from me it scares me to death. Whats even scarier is how much everyone expects from me. I can kind of understand why i wanted to be alone now. I still want to keep pushing forward, and this fear is an obstacle in my path, but how do i deal with it? It doesn't feel like something i can just ignore...
Its crazy, im more scared of the fact that i would disappoint someone in the near future than the fact that i will die someday. I'm not sure if its normal to fear anything worse than death. Im not even sure how to deal with this problem.
I have cured my depression, yet these thoughts keep pouring into my head.
Can i live up to everyone's expectations? Can i really be the kind of person everyone believes i can be? Thinking about sports, i told a coach my times and he said i need to get slightly faster to be a walk on for that school. He also said he is expecting me to get faster. My aunt also told me today that she was expecting me to get Straight A's. My mom was expecting me to get a job by the end of the year. My coach is expecting me to be better by the time we finish mid-terms. And my rival in my races from another school is expecting me to keep up with him.
When someone expects something from me it scares me to death. Whats even scarier is how much everyone expects from me. I can kind of understand why i wanted to be alone now. I still want to keep pushing forward, and this fear is an obstacle in my path, but how do i deal with it? It doesn't feel like something i can just ignore...