I have had chronic loneliness for years. I try very hard to make social connections, but I take days to recover and feel exhausted afterwards, feeling like people didn't like me, or that my loneliness is so obvious that it is repelling. This leads me to not follow through, wishing someone would reach out to me. I am so tired from trying and not getting a response and not knowing how to be seen.
I long for my ex who stopped talking with me when my dad died from cancer last year because he was overwhelmed with his depression, because he was the only person that saw me at one time. I have so many stuck feelings here and all the pain and isolation from grief and the pandemic made my body shut down and I spend most of the time exhausted doing very little. I don't know where to get support from, and struggle to give it to myself. Any good feeling is followed soon by a much worse feeling of isolation. I am 30 and unemployed and can't find the energy to get my life going.
Does anyone else feel like trying to push through to connect has the opposite effect?
thank you
I long for my ex who stopped talking with me when my dad died from cancer last year because he was overwhelmed with his depression, because he was the only person that saw me at one time. I have so many stuck feelings here and all the pain and isolation from grief and the pandemic made my body shut down and I spend most of the time exhausted doing very little. I don't know where to get support from, and struggle to give it to myself. Any good feeling is followed soon by a much worse feeling of isolation. I am 30 and unemployed and can't find the energy to get my life going.
Does anyone else feel like trying to push through to connect has the opposite effect?
thank you