Ace
Well-known member
I just don't know what to do anymore. Everything I try fails, no matter how big or small. Whatever I try to do to fix things fails, including things to fix myself. I can't be myself anymore so no one wants to talk to me, though to be fair even when I could be myself I guess I was such a loser no one wanted to bother with me anyway. I feel unwanted, unloved, feel like a complete outcast. I've stopped caring about myself and my life completely, so I sit here completely alone all day every day just hoping by some miracle my health fails because I don't have the courage to do anything myself.
I just tried watching one of my all time favorite comedy shows, had to stop it because I couldn't enjoy it. I have no appetite lately, can't sleep, can't enjoy anything I try. My health is such crap I can barely do anything anyway. No one cares. My family certainly doesn't, and the few I call friends don't seem to either. Got no reason to live, nothing and no one to live for. I feel completely empty inside, nothing fills that void.
To quote a Korn song:
I'm out here, by myself, all alone
Ready to blow my head off
I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see the world through my eyes
Each day is the same
I just wanna laugh again
I just tried watching one of my all time favorite comedy shows, had to stop it because I couldn't enjoy it. I have no appetite lately, can't sleep, can't enjoy anything I try. My health is such crap I can barely do anything anyway. No one cares. My family certainly doesn't, and the few I call friends don't seem to either. Got no reason to live, nothing and no one to live for. I feel completely empty inside, nothing fills that void.
To quote a Korn song:
I'm out here, by myself, all alone
Ready to blow my head off
I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see the world through my eyes
Each day is the same
I just wanna laugh again