So I go through the day, trying to get things done, and succeeding or not to varying degrees. Nighttime comes and I get ready to "settle in" for the evening, etc. But there's a problem. I can't go to bed. It's just this feeling of incompleteness, like I can't give up the day yet.
I check to see if I've gotten any responses from forums I'm on, maybe listen to some music or something. I feel like I'm looking for something, or waiting for something to happen. I don't know. I ask myself, "What do you want? What are you looking for?" I don't have an answer. Then it occurs to me: "There are no PEOPLE." I haven't had any real social interaction - just dealing with the unscrupulous people at work and maybe a brief informational phone call to someone. I think the feeling of restlessness or incompleteness, at least a lot of it, is a reaction to this lack of fulfilling interaction with other people.
I start to get worried - it's late, and I have to go to bed. I have a long way to drive to work in the morning, and I have to leave really early. But still there's this void. Sometimes I'll win the battle and get myself in bed. Other nights I stay up way too late wasting time online in various ways and go to work sleep deprived. I keep trying to fill the void however I can, but it doesn't seem to work. There are no people.
I check to see if I've gotten any responses from forums I'm on, maybe listen to some music or something. I feel like I'm looking for something, or waiting for something to happen. I don't know. I ask myself, "What do you want? What are you looking for?" I don't have an answer. Then it occurs to me: "There are no PEOPLE." I haven't had any real social interaction - just dealing with the unscrupulous people at work and maybe a brief informational phone call to someone. I think the feeling of restlessness or incompleteness, at least a lot of it, is a reaction to this lack of fulfilling interaction with other people.
I start to get worried - it's late, and I have to go to bed. I have a long way to drive to work in the morning, and I have to leave really early. But still there's this void. Sometimes I'll win the battle and get myself in bed. Other nights I stay up way too late wasting time online in various ways and go to work sleep deprived. I keep trying to fill the void however I can, but it doesn't seem to work. There are no people.