duality
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It seems that my life, as well as my family's life, is cursed to stay in this mediocre state in life. For as long as I can remember, my family's been struggling with financial problems. My parents just can't get that big break that we desperately need. Prices keep going up, but our income keeps getting lower.
My dad hasn't had a raise since he started in his current job; as a matter of fact, I believe he already lost his 401K. My mom lost her job and is getting unemployment, and it's way too low. My 2 sisters have jobs, thank goodness, but I don't. However, I do go to college full-time and I've been receiving financial aid, but that might change too. I might not be able to get it this time because I no longer meet a standard that they have in school in order for students to keep receiving financial aid refund, but that's still not 100% sure.
My mom keeps complaining about how our lives get nowhere. We're always in this "survival mode" where my parents constantly worry about how to pay bills, groceries, basic necessities, etc. My brother in our home country isn't doing any better, either. He has his own family to support, yet he can't find a job. Maybe this constant "broke" state runs in the family. Seeing everything going on in the world, it doesn't seem that our condition will change for the better.
Mind you, I'm a 24-year-old broke college student who still lives with his parents. I'm totally incapable of leaving home and being completely independent because I'm dead broke and doesn't have a full-time job. I've been going to the same community college for almost 5 years now. I haven't really accomplished anything in life yet. Hell, I don't even have an Associate's Degree yet. All these issues just keep piling up on top of each other that it's so hard to care about anything at all.
I know there are others who have it worse than me, but I'm just tired of this life that, to me, is increasingly becoming pointless. We're suffering all these problems, for what? Why should I even bother? Why bother doing the effort to make my life better? Is it going to matter in 100 years? Is it going to make this world a better place? What's the point? I'm just really tired of caring now.
I'm sorry for the rant, but I have to let it out and make other people see what I'm going through.
My dad hasn't had a raise since he started in his current job; as a matter of fact, I believe he already lost his 401K. My mom lost her job and is getting unemployment, and it's way too low. My 2 sisters have jobs, thank goodness, but I don't. However, I do go to college full-time and I've been receiving financial aid, but that might change too. I might not be able to get it this time because I no longer meet a standard that they have in school in order for students to keep receiving financial aid refund, but that's still not 100% sure.
My mom keeps complaining about how our lives get nowhere. We're always in this "survival mode" where my parents constantly worry about how to pay bills, groceries, basic necessities, etc. My brother in our home country isn't doing any better, either. He has his own family to support, yet he can't find a job. Maybe this constant "broke" state runs in the family. Seeing everything going on in the world, it doesn't seem that our condition will change for the better.
Mind you, I'm a 24-year-old broke college student who still lives with his parents. I'm totally incapable of leaving home and being completely independent because I'm dead broke and doesn't have a full-time job. I've been going to the same community college for almost 5 years now. I haven't really accomplished anything in life yet. Hell, I don't even have an Associate's Degree yet. All these issues just keep piling up on top of each other that it's so hard to care about anything at all.
I know there are others who have it worse than me, but I'm just tired of this life that, to me, is increasingly becoming pointless. We're suffering all these problems, for what? Why should I even bother? Why bother doing the effort to make my life better? Is it going to matter in 100 years? Is it going to make this world a better place? What's the point? I'm just really tired of caring now.
I'm sorry for the rant, but I have to let it out and make other people see what I'm going through.