YOU religious freak, u would rather see me being sacrifice with blood splash throughout my body, then to admit that GOD has treat me like crap!
This is my mom, a stubborn old wrench who hasn't face enough hardship to admit that GOD is not all he crack up to be.
No matter what I tell her, she is too stubborn to admit that GOD had put a curse on me all these years. Social Anxiety just doesn't happen to everyone, and it sure found the perfect timing to bring devastating result years later.
I have quit all connection with my mom, and have told her to go to hell. There is no way from now on I will ever step foot into a church, I rather spit at Jesus foot than kiss it.
Years of being alone, and I am going ******* crazy. Every hopes I get come crashing down on me the next day. I did so many things to be social and make friends like trying out for frats (didn't get in, stupid Asians), various clubs ( most already knew each other from dorm), talking to my floor mates (too selfish), talking to lonely people (shy away), try to enroll in acting class (teacher was a *****, didn't let me in), try to flirt with one of the dinning hall girls (already had a bf), ask a girl to hang out with me (lame excuse was "too busy"), wrote on my floor mates wall, (never respond back), ask my mom to understand (she didn't want to), floor mates ask for stuff (yet only using me).
So fresia YOU MOM, and fresia UCSC and its student. Oh and fresia my sorry life.
What have I don to deserve this? The only thing I ever did was try to be friendly, care for others, treat people with respect, be a good listener, help other in need, etc...
This is my mom, a stubborn old wrench who hasn't face enough hardship to admit that GOD is not all he crack up to be.
No matter what I tell her, she is too stubborn to admit that GOD had put a curse on me all these years. Social Anxiety just doesn't happen to everyone, and it sure found the perfect timing to bring devastating result years later.
I have quit all connection with my mom, and have told her to go to hell. There is no way from now on I will ever step foot into a church, I rather spit at Jesus foot than kiss it.
Years of being alone, and I am going ******* crazy. Every hopes I get come crashing down on me the next day. I did so many things to be social and make friends like trying out for frats (didn't get in, stupid Asians), various clubs ( most already knew each other from dorm), talking to my floor mates (too selfish), talking to lonely people (shy away), try to enroll in acting class (teacher was a *****, didn't let me in), try to flirt with one of the dinning hall girls (already had a bf), ask a girl to hang out with me (lame excuse was "too busy"), wrote on my floor mates wall, (never respond back), ask my mom to understand (she didn't want to), floor mates ask for stuff (yet only using me).
So fresia YOU MOM, and fresia UCSC and its student. Oh and fresia my sorry life.
What have I don to deserve this? The only thing I ever did was try to be friendly, care for others, treat people with respect, be a good listener, help other in need, etc...