With draws are a son of a *****. thats the cycle. Youre always in withdraws.
Being irrable and discontent is all part of it. Crazy mood swings...etc
So you use again or more.
Anyway...I hope you get well. There's only so much people can do for you
on line forr moral support. Some or most people arent really going to understand you.
Or understand a person that has the disease of addiction...becuase you look pyshically
OK...
Most people have a misscomceptions of what it is to have the disease of addiction.
An addict can be yout granmother, doctors, lawers, policemen, judges, preachers,,,etc,,etc.
The denial and hiding they're drug usage is all part of the disease.
Addiction dosnt discriminate....it dosnt care who you are, how nice or mean you are,
what you do for a living, what you believe in or dont believe in. Who loves you or dont loves you.
What race, religion, creed.
IT KILLS and DESTROY LIVES
Please dont ever give up. Rehab isnt going to be a cake walk and they're not going to fix.
You dont come out of rehab cured...
There's alot more issues to face or work on aside the drug abuse itself.
Even if you relapse over and over again...please dont ever give up.
A lot of people dont really know or understand to have the disease of addiction...therefore
the judgmens you'll recieve.
While I'm not going to make excuse for some the irratic behaviors or decisions making.
My first year of recovery was extreemly painful.
Every breathing moment I felt I was in constant pains...lots and lots of emotional and mental pains
even after my body stopped craving for the drugs or alcohol.
i wish the ones I love can get to a piont of deciding to go to rehab...
Like i say...addiction dosnt care.
Be well...