Hallelujah!!!

[Bluey]

Am not normally into crap like this song here but I heard this on the radio and loved it. I didn't even know she was the UKs X factor winner tell I seen the video just now. But ye am impressed and can see why she won. Good on her anyway. Who ever she is...

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Can we have faith. Faith to find some kinder happens in this world when I myself have had 14 years of living alone nearly. I have been busy this christmas socialising with family manly. But in a lot of ways I think its been one of the loneliest Ive had.

Like most holidays it just magnifies the feeling of having not got that spacial one person.

And next we have Valentines day...woppy doo for that! Another day just to rub our sorry ass noses into the fact that we have nobody. ---At least that's how it feels---

Read this article here. You well see that a man called Valentine died in the name of love. I have always hated this day. I think I only ever got to Jone in this day one time in my sorry ass life. I have always thought what a good day it would be to kill once self. (I am sorry to say) But this is me being honest here. Unlike Valentine who was killed for marrying loved once. I would die for love but not cos I was in love but because I feel no love but yet so much would like to. So I would be doing it for the exact same reason but yet opposite as well.

Well, if only I had the bottle to end this what seems to get a sadder and sadder existence. I come to the realisation long ago now that I would never end this life of my own accord. I know I could never do such a thing but that dose not make living this life any easier.

So I say seat here on my own and why feeling unloved and mostly unwanted by the world, I say Hallelujah, Halle-*******-lujah.

Ive cried this morning. I cried cos I was glad I got fro another christmas with out a kiss of a loved one. With out someone to share my bed with. Without Someone to hug up to why watching TV at night. With out that special loved one that everyone deserves to have in this world. I ask my self what I have asked a million times already in this life. I ask why me?

Thanks for reading. I not had no energy to even talk to ppl on line for a few weeks now but I Guss am working fro my honeysuckle again and glad its another year be for the what is supposed to be a magical time of the year is here again. Hallelujah to that at least.

 

[Minus]

I am sorry that you have been feeling so down.

Like most holidays it just magnifies the feeling of having not got that spacial one person.

The holidays sure can bring to the surface the feelings of all that is lacking.

 

[Bluey]

lacking.

Isn't that an understatement.

Am 34 in less then 3 weeks and I don't even have a funking sex life. Pride bitten would be an understatement.

This is a poor excuse for a life.

BUT...I keep going like the stubborn little ****** I am. I never did know when I was beaten hah

 

[evanescencefan91]

i'm sorry bluey i know that it is one of the worst feelings of being alone is the emptyness of feeling that there is nobody out there that is thinking of you.

But at the very least me and the rest of us here all think of you from time to time. And we hope that you are doing well.

we're all so very grateful for everything you've given to this site i still remember the little teddty bear picture you sent to me when i was feeling down and nostalgic i have it saved on my ipod. So that wherever i go i'll always have your little teddy bear to make me feel better

*hugs*

 

[evanescencefan91]

aha i knew i still had somewhere in the computer

*hugs*



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[alonerly]

That's a covered Leonard Cohen song I don't like this version much, but I think it's a good song.

With that said, I'm sorry about the lonliness you're feeling. I hate the way the holidays amplify my nonexistent love life too. keep trucking i guess:S

 

[Bluey]

aha i knew i still had somewhere in the computer

*hugs*

You are such a nice person I am glad that this could Cher you up so often Its always nice to here that the little things we do can mean something.. Love you

 

[Bluey]

That's a covered Leonard Cohen song I don't like this version much, but I think it's a good song.

With that said, I'm sorry about the lonliness you're feeling. I hate the way the holidays amplify my nonexistent love life too. keep trucking i guess:S

Iv not got a great knowledge of music. which is unreal relay to say how often I listen to it. Guss am just a bit slow that way.

Fro christmas my mum and dad fostered this 14 year old for a few days. We was all in my car going to pizza hut. I had a CD on. The kid know nearly every song I was playing. Its just some stuff I put on the CD but most of it was old rock bands. He know what songs and the groups was and it was me that did the CD and I did not know. This is me. I know what I like I just never remember the names of songs or the name of the bands. Sucks to be me I Guss.

But ye, Keep on trucking sounds like a carry on film lol. Bit like my life.

 

[alonerly]

Iv not got a great knowledge of music. which is unreal relay to say how often I listen to it. Guss am just a bit slow that way.

Fro christmas my mum and dad fostered this 14 year old for a few days. We was all in my car going to pizza hut. I had a CD on. The kid know nearly every song I was playing. Its just some stuff I put on the CD but most of it was old rock bands. He know what songs and the groups was and it was me that did the CD and I did not know. This is me. I know what I like I just never remember the names of songs or the name of the bands. Sucks to be me I Guss.

But ye, Keep on trucking sounds like a carry on film lol. Bit like my life.

I keep a pretty good record of musicians/band names in my memory when I like their music, but I have a pretty hard time remembering actual titles of songs too, unless of course the title of the song is part of the lyrics like Hallelujah
It probably doesn't suck to be you, but what probably does suck is having a 14 yr old kid interrupt your music with his obnoxious music trivia
Hehe, keep on trucking is the slogan of my life for sure, unless the real meaning has to do with actual trucks, then maybe not

 

[Bluey]

Its a good slogan to have I Guss. Well my life dose suck in many ways. But I suppose I do have some things to be grateful for as well