BlueArtist
Well-known member
OK reason I'm signed up recently, is because I'm depressed and lonely. 36 and always been single.
The recent bout of depression is because something that played off 3 weeks ago.
I met a woman 2 years ago, at that stage it was impossible to begin a serious relationship and I wouldn't done so either since I wouldn't wanted to take advantage of the situation she was in. I met her 2 months after her husband committed suicide. I developed feelings for her but was afraid that if I get closer to her that being a friend for her at that stage my feelings for her would get in the way and ruin things.
I was my own worst enemy and probably still am. She was successful and fairly well off and I was scared since I do not come from a affluent family, that she, her friends and family would think I'm just after her money. I began thinking that I have absolutely nothing to offer this woman. But I realised after a year I was being silly. I was often invited to dinner at her place and her birthday parties. In the beginning of the year I was told that she met somebody else who is an attorney and I though once again that I wasn’t good enough for her and that she is better off without me.
3 months ago I was on holiday and in the vicinity of where she now stays, I went and visit her and spent a total of 2 days with her. We talked for hours and she took me for a tour of her coastal town. I turned out that the new bf dumped her because he wasn't prepared to work for the relationship.
A month ago she was up here where I lived and contacted me to go and enjoy lunch with her. We talked again for hours and she constantly hold my hand or shoulder as we talked. I eventually after 2 years scraped together the courage to tell her how I felt about her and that I cared and would like to see her more often, that I was interested in being more that just friends but would like to get to know her better and see where it goes. She told me she isn't interested in any relationships at this moment but that I'm a good friend to her. We talked a few times afterwards but all of a sudden she seemed to begin avoiding me, does not answer to mails etc.
Should I just forget about her now and just try and move on?
The recent bout of depression is because something that played off 3 weeks ago.
I met a woman 2 years ago, at that stage it was impossible to begin a serious relationship and I wouldn't done so either since I wouldn't wanted to take advantage of the situation she was in. I met her 2 months after her husband committed suicide. I developed feelings for her but was afraid that if I get closer to her that being a friend for her at that stage my feelings for her would get in the way and ruin things.
I was my own worst enemy and probably still am. She was successful and fairly well off and I was scared since I do not come from a affluent family, that she, her friends and family would think I'm just after her money. I began thinking that I have absolutely nothing to offer this woman. But I realised after a year I was being silly. I was often invited to dinner at her place and her birthday parties. In the beginning of the year I was told that she met somebody else who is an attorney and I though once again that I wasn’t good enough for her and that she is better off without me.
3 months ago I was on holiday and in the vicinity of where she now stays, I went and visit her and spent a total of 2 days with her. We talked for hours and she took me for a tour of her coastal town. I turned out that the new bf dumped her because he wasn't prepared to work for the relationship.
A month ago she was up here where I lived and contacted me to go and enjoy lunch with her. We talked again for hours and she constantly hold my hand or shoulder as we talked. I eventually after 2 years scraped together the courage to tell her how I felt about her and that I cared and would like to see her more often, that I was interested in being more that just friends but would like to get to know her better and see where it goes. She told me she isn't interested in any relationships at this moment but that I'm a good friend to her. We talked a few times afterwards but all of a sudden she seemed to begin avoiding me, does not answer to mails etc.
Should I just forget about her now and just try and move on?