LonelySutton
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I think, since the day I could first think I knew I was going to be alone. In my gut, I knew it. When I was in high school in Sophomore year, I decided I was going to go to prom. But in my heart I felt it wasn't going to happen. Not in a very "woe is me way" just I always felt people were just sort of intimidated by me. I did my best to look attractive ( and I was) and I tried to be more out going but, in the end, no one asked. Which is amazing because the school I went to was small and it was sort of the "culture" that everyone would look after each other and make sure no one was unhappy. It was as if people just didn't think of me.
It didn't bother me anyway (on the day of the prom my brother bought home a kitten) and I did get asked to Senior prom but declined because it was a pity date set up by a teacher.
When I went to college I kind of did a similar thing. I was invited to a lot of parties and went but even though I did have friends... and male friends who I did think were interested, mostly nothing.
I am not sure what it is but I think it is related to this one idea that I am strong and independent. I just don't really go along with people too easy. But there is just something about my entire personality that screams ... get away that people pick up on. Even now, a lot of my "friends" are kind of lite friends who kind of don't really stick.
In my heart, I know, I am always going to be alone... I don't say that in a woe is me way, just something I know. I just don't inspire people to want to get closer or think of me.
You?
It didn't bother me anyway (on the day of the prom my brother bought home a kitten) and I did get asked to Senior prom but declined because it was a pity date set up by a teacher.
When I went to college I kind of did a similar thing. I was invited to a lot of parties and went but even though I did have friends... and male friends who I did think were interested, mostly nothing.
I am not sure what it is but I think it is related to this one idea that I am strong and independent. I just don't really go along with people too easy. But there is just something about my entire personality that screams ... get away that people pick up on. Even now, a lot of my "friends" are kind of lite friends who kind of don't really stick.
In my heart, I know, I am always going to be alone... I don't say that in a woe is me way, just something I know. I just don't inspire people to want to get closer or think of me.
You?