Ilvatresbien
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** Poll should say "fulfilling" not "unfulfilling".
First, I'd like to say hello to everybody (again). I feel like I need to give a brief background to explain how I got here:
- Raised in an EXTREMELY overprotective Christian family.
- Both of my parents sides of the family have deep issues so they are not close with their extended family.
- No close grandparents (except my mom's), cousins, uncles or aunts. When I do see my family every so many years, it just feels like being around familiar strangers....
-Religious preoccupation. It dominated my life for over a decade! It was a huge reason I didn't connect with people. I was a 12 year old kid worried about hellfire and damnation while other kids were having fun and hanging out.
-This fear only got worse as I got older and deeper into strict churches and teaching.
Good things: I did manage to graduate college and find a couple great jobs. But I truly didn't realize how abnormal my anti-social lifestyle was until I was graduating from college and had less than a handful of people to share my special day with...
Sorry for the long backstory! But that is the most important parts of it. I am now in my mid-twenties and fighting through my upbringing, teachings and patterns to have a normal life. It is not easy and it may take many years but I think having a few close relationships is worth the effort.
First, I'd like to say hello to everybody (again). I feel like I need to give a brief background to explain how I got here:
- Raised in an EXTREMELY overprotective Christian family.
- Both of my parents sides of the family have deep issues so they are not close with their extended family.
- No close grandparents (except my mom's), cousins, uncles or aunts. When I do see my family every so many years, it just feels like being around familiar strangers....
-Religious preoccupation. It dominated my life for over a decade! It was a huge reason I didn't connect with people. I was a 12 year old kid worried about hellfire and damnation while other kids were having fun and hanging out.
-This fear only got worse as I got older and deeper into strict churches and teaching.
Good things: I did manage to graduate college and find a couple great jobs. But I truly didn't realize how abnormal my anti-social lifestyle was until I was graduating from college and had less than a handful of people to share my special day with...
Sorry for the long backstory! But that is the most important parts of it. I am now in my mid-twenties and fighting through my upbringing, teachings and patterns to have a normal life. It is not easy and it may take many years but I think having a few close relationships is worth the effort.