Overthinker
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Hi, people. I just found this site, and I thought I'd try this out.
because I was home-schooled since 2nd grade, I've never had many chances to meet people. When I was a kid, I was perfectly happy with the way I behaved around strangers or friends. I didn't care so much what other people thought; so I was free to be who I am. But as I've gotten older, I began noticing others' eyes rolling and heads shaking at everything I say. Slowly I've started accepting the idea that ANYTHING I enjoy and ANYTHING I want to talk about is inferior to what other people like or want to talk about.
I see a friend of mine; so I'll walk up and say, "Hey, man, did you see the new episode of--" (Friend interrupts) "Dude, I was reading this book last night... (blah, blah, blah)" So, trying to be polite, I give him the benefit of the doubt. I think to myself, "you know what, he probably just didn't hear me! Yeah, I'm sure that's it." So I don't mention anything about it to him. But this keeps happening. People realize they can walk all over me and ignore what I say. After deciding I'd had enough of this, I started telling people "HEY! I was in the middle of something!" And then they'll respond in a silly voice "Aw, shut up!" or something like that. Then they proceed as though I hadn't said anything.
This has happened to me so much, that whenever I think to myself, " I want to talk to Jack about my weekend," I open my mouth briefly, before remembering the verbal slap in the face I received last time I tried to steer the conversation, and then the words sort of die on my lips. It's almost as if these "friends" of mine want me to sit down, shut up, and listen to their monologue. But... they're my "friends," right? Why would a friend do that to me?
Long story short (Haha, too late for that) I find myself very alone, even when I'm with my friends. They don't seem to respect me. Not sure what to do now.
because I was home-schooled since 2nd grade, I've never had many chances to meet people. When I was a kid, I was perfectly happy with the way I behaved around strangers or friends. I didn't care so much what other people thought; so I was free to be who I am. But as I've gotten older, I began noticing others' eyes rolling and heads shaking at everything I say. Slowly I've started accepting the idea that ANYTHING I enjoy and ANYTHING I want to talk about is inferior to what other people like or want to talk about.
I see a friend of mine; so I'll walk up and say, "Hey, man, did you see the new episode of--" (Friend interrupts) "Dude, I was reading this book last night... (blah, blah, blah)" So, trying to be polite, I give him the benefit of the doubt. I think to myself, "you know what, he probably just didn't hear me! Yeah, I'm sure that's it." So I don't mention anything about it to him. But this keeps happening. People realize they can walk all over me and ignore what I say. After deciding I'd had enough of this, I started telling people "HEY! I was in the middle of something!" And then they'll respond in a silly voice "Aw, shut up!" or something like that. Then they proceed as though I hadn't said anything.
This has happened to me so much, that whenever I think to myself, " I want to talk to Jack about my weekend," I open my mouth briefly, before remembering the verbal slap in the face I received last time I tried to steer the conversation, and then the words sort of die on my lips. It's almost as if these "friends" of mine want me to sit down, shut up, and listen to their monologue. But... they're my "friends," right? Why would a friend do that to me?
Long story short (Haha, too late for that) I find myself very alone, even when I'm with my friends. They don't seem to respect me. Not sure what to do now.