Hey guys, I thought i'd register here since it seems to have an active community.
Basically, I don't like to call myself depressed, which can be synonymous with loneliness, but since year 8 (when I was 13 years old) I realised that I wasn't in control of my life, and I was in the unknown. I don't want to make myself sound like a cry baby too much, but, as well as those factors, I didn't have any 'real' friends at that point, as well as earlier in my life.
And in year 9, I, again didn't have any 'real' friends. I hung around with a group, which had around 6 people in it. One person made fun of the majority of the group, namely me and some other person. I stuck around with the other guy who was getting made fun of out of school. But, because of this, he made fun of me more, and participated in making fun of me.
This isn't a big point, but, again in year 9, I hung around with another person outside from school, long story short, him and me, and some other people in the middle of the night at some apartment drank a lot of vodka. Next thing I know, I woke up in the hospital with tubes in my arm etc.
Anyways, the consensus I've come to, based on my previous experiences with socialisation and friendships, is that my inability to socialise correctly makes it hard for me to form emotional connections to people. And in turn, this prevents me from naturally forming social connections with people. It also prevents me from 'caring' too much about what other people have to say. This is just me theorising, of course my parents barely having no social connections when I was younger didn't help, but I don't want to blame them too much. Also as soon as your depressed/lonely, it just becomes a landslide, and keeps getting worse.
I'm 20 now, and I don't have anybody that texts me willingly except for my Dad. I have to text my friends to see if they want to do anything, and I have 2 friends, that I probably see an average of 1-2 months. I've tried an online dating site, to make new friends, but no luck, and I've also tried to talk to a chick in my Uni class, and she didn't say anything the next tutorial after I mentioned that I wanted to hang out. I know that if I went to a psychologist/psychiatrist, the first thing they would say is that I need to see people, or get in some sort of group to get into the habit of forming more social connections.
I do have to note, that the 2 friends I do have, are nice and honest people, and i'm completely open with them.
Basically, I don't like to call myself depressed, which can be synonymous with loneliness, but since year 8 (when I was 13 years old) I realised that I wasn't in control of my life, and I was in the unknown. I don't want to make myself sound like a cry baby too much, but, as well as those factors, I didn't have any 'real' friends at that point, as well as earlier in my life.
And in year 9, I, again didn't have any 'real' friends. I hung around with a group, which had around 6 people in it. One person made fun of the majority of the group, namely me and some other person. I stuck around with the other guy who was getting made fun of out of school. But, because of this, he made fun of me more, and participated in making fun of me.
This isn't a big point, but, again in year 9, I hung around with another person outside from school, long story short, him and me, and some other people in the middle of the night at some apartment drank a lot of vodka. Next thing I know, I woke up in the hospital with tubes in my arm etc.
Anyways, the consensus I've come to, based on my previous experiences with socialisation and friendships, is that my inability to socialise correctly makes it hard for me to form emotional connections to people. And in turn, this prevents me from naturally forming social connections with people. It also prevents me from 'caring' too much about what other people have to say. This is just me theorising, of course my parents barely having no social connections when I was younger didn't help, but I don't want to blame them too much. Also as soon as your depressed/lonely, it just becomes a landslide, and keeps getting worse.
I'm 20 now, and I don't have anybody that texts me willingly except for my Dad. I have to text my friends to see if they want to do anything, and I have 2 friends, that I probably see an average of 1-2 months. I've tried an online dating site, to make new friends, but no luck, and I've also tried to talk to a chick in my Uni class, and she didn't say anything the next tutorial after I mentioned that I wanted to hang out. I know that if I went to a psychologist/psychiatrist, the first thing they would say is that I need to see people, or get in some sort of group to get into the habit of forming more social connections.
I do have to note, that the 2 friends I do have, are nice and honest people, and i'm completely open with them.
