painter's radio
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Ah, Christmas. Most wonderful time of the year my ass. Yes, I'm from the UK but I say "ass" on the internet, I'm polite like that, being around mostly Americans.
No prizes for guessing why I'm on this site - I'm lonely. The stupid thing is, I'm alone by choice, yet so incredibly alone. Over the past few months I was spending a lot of time with a really great female friend, we got on like a house on fire, best friends. She developed strong feelings for me which I was too stupid (messed up, bit of a history of mental illness, very shy, insecure etc) to embrace, now she's with someone else and it really hurts, I regret so much.
Well that's my recent trouble. Perfect time of year for this to happen, though I suppose it's never a good time is it. I think about doing some volunteer/charity work every Christmas, maybe at an animal shelter or homeless, but I never get around to it. I'd probably break down and start crying, lol.
Hmm, a website for lonely people. I frequent many forums, have done for years, but the only other one similar to this was one based around depression, psychology, relationships etc. I feel like a bit of a user really - just posting when I feel like crap and need someone to talk to... I know this is what they're for but hey that's me and my ever sense of burden and insecurity.
But we'll see. Maybe I will like it here
hi hello and thanks for reading.
No prizes for guessing why I'm on this site - I'm lonely. The stupid thing is, I'm alone by choice, yet so incredibly alone. Over the past few months I was spending a lot of time with a really great female friend, we got on like a house on fire, best friends. She developed strong feelings for me which I was too stupid (messed up, bit of a history of mental illness, very shy, insecure etc) to embrace, now she's with someone else and it really hurts, I regret so much.
Well that's my recent trouble. Perfect time of year for this to happen, though I suppose it's never a good time is it. I think about doing some volunteer/charity work every Christmas, maybe at an animal shelter or homeless, but I never get around to it. I'd probably break down and start crying, lol.
Hmm, a website for lonely people. I frequent many forums, have done for years, but the only other one similar to this was one based around depression, psychology, relationships etc. I feel like a bit of a user really - just posting when I feel like crap and need someone to talk to... I know this is what they're for but hey that's me and my ever sense of burden and insecurity.
But we'll see. Maybe I will like it here
hi hello and thanks for reading.