Sahid Brown
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Hello everybody here, I am from South Texas and for much of my life I have been lonely but there were some great times I wasn't. For most of life I have been too much of a coward and shy to confront life as it is. In middle and high school I always had girls hitting on me and picking on me to get their attention but I was too shy to talk to them back and I would hide in the bathroom stalls when I saw the group of girls that liked me. In middle school I was too shy to talk to anyone and I would usually hang out with the "losers", I have always had but when I finally got to highschool. I changed, and that was biggest mistake in my life. I went to the same highschool as my brother, and he has always been a trouble maker. He was a wannabe gang member and he was popular among the highschool crowd, as highschool is. I started to change when I started to hang out with him, I started to dress and think similar to him but I never acted like him in highschool. I was the same shy guy but with a different mentality through out high school. Lucky, I lost my virginity in highschool and have had experiences with girls through my life. But, I never really showed my true identity to people and thus didn't really develop an identity to myself and to people. So I never really, established a social life and relationships with people. It was just sporadic moments of fun but nothing that for the long run. I never really talked to my girl friend in highschool, we would just see each other in the weekend. So the relationship fell apart, after her I met a couple of other girls but I never called them back because I was afraid of life and really revealing my true identity. After that I feel in a 3 year depresssion and I was in deep issues, but now I am back and am glad that finally understand what my problem is. My real problem was being myself from the start. Any has similar experiences?
