seliandara
New member
i'm lonely inside if that makes sense. sth is wrong with me but i don't know what it is and too afraid to check it out.
outsiders sees me as a loving mom & hubby adores me but i'm caged...
i am friendly as long as it's not 'can we go lunch together' or 'want to join us for etc.?' invites then i get tensed and make up thousands of reason when i'm polite or just give them the decline smile.
i envy people gathering but can't be in one myself or i feel like i'm going to faint from overcrowding or vomit from interaction.
i feel powerful when i'm playing online game but in reality i feel pathetic, weak, useless, ugly and many more negatives.
i am here coz maybe i can find someone to talk to that won't make me feel like it's an invasion...lol, this is extreme weird
so hi and sorry if this sounds messed up
outsiders sees me as a loving mom & hubby adores me but i'm caged...
i am friendly as long as it's not 'can we go lunch together' or 'want to join us for etc.?' invites then i get tensed and make up thousands of reason when i'm polite or just give them the decline smile.
i envy people gathering but can't be in one myself or i feel like i'm going to faint from overcrowding or vomit from interaction.
i feel powerful when i'm playing online game but in reality i feel pathetic, weak, useless, ugly and many more negatives.
i am here coz maybe i can find someone to talk to that won't make me feel like it's an invasion...lol, this is extreme weird
so hi and sorry if this sounds messed up