I didnt know such a forum existed but am glad i found this place. I thought i was the only person in the world who feels totally lonely & out of step with the world but see we are many.
This started with me during my puberty & has never left, will be 54 in a few weeks. I cant seem to find friends that i want to be bothered with or someone to love so i just work & come home. I would love to have good friends but seem to always back away from people because i dont trust them. A husband or boyfriend would be even better but I am not attractive, am a little overweight, & my age has robbed me of hopes of finding someone like that. I hate going places alone so i wont go out or do anything to meet others. I always seem to feel like i dont belong or am paranoid about my looks or something. Ive had low self-esteem for so many years that i dont even remember when it started. I think it was when pimples showed up. I became shy & quiet cause i didnt want to draw attention to myself. The pimples never went away so i never opened up to people. Its become a habit that i dont know how to break & i feel its too late to try. I have always had beautiful white teeth, long hair & really oily skin but all thats gone except the pimples & oily skin. so i truly feel unattractive with gray & wrinkles showing up.
Anyway, I am glad i found you guys so i have someone to share my true feelings with w/o being judged. Want to say in advance, Thanks for being here.......:shy:
This started with me during my puberty & has never left, will be 54 in a few weeks. I cant seem to find friends that i want to be bothered with or someone to love so i just work & come home. I would love to have good friends but seem to always back away from people because i dont trust them. A husband or boyfriend would be even better but I am not attractive, am a little overweight, & my age has robbed me of hopes of finding someone like that. I hate going places alone so i wont go out or do anything to meet others. I always seem to feel like i dont belong or am paranoid about my looks or something. Ive had low self-esteem for so many years that i dont even remember when it started. I think it was when pimples showed up. I became shy & quiet cause i didnt want to draw attention to myself. The pimples never went away so i never opened up to people. Its become a habit that i dont know how to break & i feel its too late to try. I have always had beautiful white teeth, long hair & really oily skin but all thats gone except the pimples & oily skin. so i truly feel unattractive with gray & wrinkles showing up.
Anyway, I am glad i found you guys so i have someone to share my true feelings with w/o being judged. Want to say in advance, Thanks for being here.......:shy:
