For 3 years, I went to a Christian school that I think was expecting way too much from me. I had to do 4-5 hours of homework a night for 3 years! Imagine that! On my junior year, my brain just snapped. I told myself I couldn't do it anymore. It was literally sucking my life and I starting to feel that nobody at that school really cared about me or needed me. This led to major depression and suicidal thoughts. Just to make everything clear, I thought about it but I didn't actually try. I talked to the only person at the school who showed me that he truly cared about me. He was a big help. My mom was getting worried about me so she got me on antidepressants. I'm still taking them. I'm in my senior year of high school and I left the school to take classes at a community college. I'm loving it there because it is much more flexible but I think I'm still recovering from that experience. I'm struggling to finding out how to live and not just survive.