LuckieDuckie
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So i joined here a couple of day's ago but haven't had the time to post a thread till now. It's not that I feel like i'm alone, because sure, there are people I talk to in real life. But it's more about the fact that they don't understand what i'm going through.
I alway's have some medical tale of woe and it's annoying because there is alway's something wrong with me. I was told my whole life I wouldn't amount to anything, I wouldn't have any qualification's and I would have kid's by the time i'm 20. I suffer from Hypothyroidism due to the pill's my mother took when she was pregnant with me. She think's i'm a freak because I have to live off pill's and constantly remind's me of how imperfect I am. She neglect's me and constantly tell's me i'm adopted even though i'm her kid. She refused to admit I was her's because of my birth defect. My mother is severly dillusional, and I have developed a complete and utter hatred for her :LLL
My dad, He just lost one of his leg's. So he's alway's depressed and think's that he can beat his depression out of him. Hence, the extended beating's. It use to be for like an hour, now it's over 3 hour's he yell's and beat's us. I know many people are like, You can report him for it because it's called abuse and all he is doing is going to teach you that this behaviour is okay. I know it's not okay to beat someone you love. So don't worry :L
But what some people need to understand is that when it's the only love you have, You will put up with anything. To lock my dad in jail will kill not only him but myself :L Australian Prison sucks - My step brother is a screw (guard) so I know what it's like in there. At times I do feel lonely but I tend to just lock my emotion's away (bottling them up). I know it's not healthy but it's the way I was taught to live my life.
I told my dad I wanted to work in law over in America, and he was extremely hurt and angry. He thought I was ditching him and that I wanted nothing to do with him. I can't say I wasn't thinking about it..
Well :L This is long enough.. Thanks for reading
I alway's have some medical tale of woe and it's annoying because there is alway's something wrong with me. I was told my whole life I wouldn't amount to anything, I wouldn't have any qualification's and I would have kid's by the time i'm 20. I suffer from Hypothyroidism due to the pill's my mother took when she was pregnant with me. She think's i'm a freak because I have to live off pill's and constantly remind's me of how imperfect I am. She neglect's me and constantly tell's me i'm adopted even though i'm her kid. She refused to admit I was her's because of my birth defect. My mother is severly dillusional, and I have developed a complete and utter hatred for her :LLL
My dad, He just lost one of his leg's. So he's alway's depressed and think's that he can beat his depression out of him. Hence, the extended beating's. It use to be for like an hour, now it's over 3 hour's he yell's and beat's us. I know many people are like, You can report him for it because it's called abuse and all he is doing is going to teach you that this behaviour is okay. I know it's not okay to beat someone you love. So don't worry :L
But what some people need to understand is that when it's the only love you have, You will put up with anything. To lock my dad in jail will kill not only him but myself :L Australian Prison sucks - My step brother is a screw (guard) so I know what it's like in there. At times I do feel lonely but I tend to just lock my emotion's away (bottling them up). I know it's not healthy but it's the way I was taught to live my life.
I told my dad I wanted to work in law over in America, and he was extremely hurt and angry. He thought I was ditching him and that I wanted nothing to do with him. I can't say I wasn't thinking about it..
Well :L This is long enough.. Thanks for reading
