Please be advised that this will be long. Ill try to make it interesting.
Anyway. To be honest, I don`t know how to answer that question. I despise my physical appearance, and have been that way my entire life. Ive also been bullied quite a lot because it, and have often been forced into a position were I had to rely on my wits. Sometimes ive even my fists. Not that i`m condoning violence. Far from it. But my experience has taught me that some people in life are beyond reason, and will never leave you alone, unless they have no choice. Not that this is relevant to this thread, i`m sure you guys are lovely, but this is also a good example as to how self loathing can effect a person`s life and mentality. For example, id like to believe that if I wasn't born ugly, I probably wouldn't be here. Not to mention that the ladies are quite particular, when it comes basic attraction. Or, at least that`s how it usually goes for me. Ive heard so many versions of "lets be friends!" and "I love you like a brother", that once ive even considered recording such an encounter, and mixing it into a proper groove. Possibly uploading it into Youtube, and offering it as a free download for the enjoyment of my fellow disgruntled brothers (and yes I know that I have an odd sense of humor).
Seriously though, putting all sarcastic things aside, the way that I look has always been something I find that I can never get over. And the older you get, the harder it is to deal with it. Ugliness and insecurity effects everything. When With your friends (not that I have any lol), you always wonder what their saying about you when your not around. When your at work, someone attractive will always be favored (like seeing a hot dumb blond get promoted instead of you, when you know its not because of her skill). And being ugly also effects your private life. For example, every ugly person knows that if they end up with someone incredibly hot, their gonna have a great time in bed, but a very difficult time in life. Have you ever ended up with someone that was "outta your league?" I have. And it was terrifying. Broke up with her myself. And while I know that this is the part where the ladies in the house are suppose to say how stupid (or unfair) that is, and they would be right, but that`s how it works when your insecurity penetrates every aspect of your life. It blinds you. When I look in the mirror I literally want to smash my head against it, in hopes that maybe someday my reflection will change. Because what some people don`t realize is that when your ugly, people give you this "look". And you grow up with that "look". Some are of course less obvious than others, but if everything we end up doing is a result of our own perception, than its easy to understand how one thing may have lead to another. Ugliness included.
_ TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT: (for the lazy people in the da house)_ guess what i`m trying to say is... how does a person stop hating themselves, when everyone around them tells them that their ugly? how can a person get over that? and if by any chance someone here feels as if they can relate to this, that is also good. In fact, being as I am not an optimist, that would be better than any cliche a "pretty person" would "throw" at me. Thank you for your time!
Anyway. To be honest, I don`t know how to answer that question. I despise my physical appearance, and have been that way my entire life. Ive also been bullied quite a lot because it, and have often been forced into a position were I had to rely on my wits. Sometimes ive even my fists. Not that i`m condoning violence. Far from it. But my experience has taught me that some people in life are beyond reason, and will never leave you alone, unless they have no choice. Not that this is relevant to this thread, i`m sure you guys are lovely, but this is also a good example as to how self loathing can effect a person`s life and mentality. For example, id like to believe that if I wasn't born ugly, I probably wouldn't be here. Not to mention that the ladies are quite particular, when it comes basic attraction. Or, at least that`s how it usually goes for me. Ive heard so many versions of "lets be friends!" and "I love you like a brother", that once ive even considered recording such an encounter, and mixing it into a proper groove. Possibly uploading it into Youtube, and offering it as a free download for the enjoyment of my fellow disgruntled brothers (and yes I know that I have an odd sense of humor).
Seriously though, putting all sarcastic things aside, the way that I look has always been something I find that I can never get over. And the older you get, the harder it is to deal with it. Ugliness and insecurity effects everything. When With your friends (not that I have any lol), you always wonder what their saying about you when your not around. When your at work, someone attractive will always be favored (like seeing a hot dumb blond get promoted instead of you, when you know its not because of her skill). And being ugly also effects your private life. For example, every ugly person knows that if they end up with someone incredibly hot, their gonna have a great time in bed, but a very difficult time in life. Have you ever ended up with someone that was "outta your league?" I have. And it was terrifying. Broke up with her myself. And while I know that this is the part where the ladies in the house are suppose to say how stupid (or unfair) that is, and they would be right, but that`s how it works when your insecurity penetrates every aspect of your life. It blinds you. When I look in the mirror I literally want to smash my head against it, in hopes that maybe someday my reflection will change. Because what some people don`t realize is that when your ugly, people give you this "look". And you grow up with that "look". Some are of course less obvious than others, but if everything we end up doing is a result of our own perception, than its easy to understand how one thing may have lead to another. Ugliness included.
_ TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT: (for the lazy people in the da house)_ guess what i`m trying to say is... how does a person stop hating themselves, when everyone around them tells them that their ugly? how can a person get over that? and if by any chance someone here feels as if they can relate to this, that is also good. In fact, being as I am not an optimist, that would be better than any cliche a "pretty person" would "throw" at me. Thank you for your time!